Waiting for a Falling Star Part I

by Yvonne Singer

Hell was finally over and I was tickled yellow just to be me.
Found a brand new place where my bleeding heart could mend and people were down to earth.
Still didn't know where my glowing soul was heading and scared to death to let go.
Lungs have been racing since day one and sizzling hot, tears have been hiding underneath my sense of humor.
Whole body was in one, huge, knot and the sharp, steak knives did not disappear.
Felt like pure shit because my freedom to lead an independent life had been taken away.
Why oh why did the morons have to make the jolly old, sun cry and why couldn't the entire world live in peace?
God dammit!!! I was a full-grown woman with wild dreams and the wackos were treating me just like a cherub, fuck!!!
It was just not fair as thoughts of failing high school reentered my keen brain cells.

All of a sudden, my whole tender and beautiful body instantly dropped onto the dirty, white, cold, hard, floor.
Mouth was hanging wide open and all of my skinny, four limbs were break dancing as sweat began to take over.
Voice was now screaming like hell and skin just turned dark blue as all of the three Gods yelled.
"TAKE YOUR PILLS OR YOU WILL NEVER LEARN HOW TO WALK!!!" was causing my old faded, dark green, outfit to burn to a crisp.
"YOU HAVE NO MIND; SO THEREFORE, ATTENDING COLLEGE WAS OUT OF THE QUESTION..." changed the pale, yellow candy, room spin and the remaining parts of the old faded dark green outfit vanished into thin air.
"YOU BELONG WITH THE MENTALLY RETARDED ADULTS BECAUSE YOU CANNOT MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS." made Mr. Apple explode and pictures from the sunny walls started to fall like bullets.
So goddamn m/a/d that pure red tomato blood was shooting out of my long, Jewish, nose.
Completely naked and ready to shout "DEAD 1S DEAD!" as my holy heart laid on my wet and slimy skin.
My chest was heaving like an old, freight,, train as the perspiration was slipping and sliding right down my hairy, dry, legs.
Could still see marks from my silky, tan, bra as both nipples pointed in opposite directions.
My curly, chocolate, hair is now falling out because the body heat was too intense as luke warm, teardrops blinded my eyes.

A sweet voice just whispered, "YOU ARE AN AMAZING WOMAN AND WE WILL SHARE THE ROSE TOGETHER." as the scent of fresh cut, light green, grass woke me up.
Visions of birds floating in the baby blue, sky made a smile appear as the handsome fellow held me underneath the sunlight.
Felt light as a feather and everything was so goddamn peaceful for some odd reason.
Wore a flowered print, outfit and soft, pale pink, high tops on my crooked and twisted feet.
"I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY SAY BECAUSE YOU ARE PRETTY, KIND, WARM, INTELLIGENT, AND YOU ARE MY GIRL." was causing a heart attack as a juicy kiss was placed on my lips.
Speaking to each other all afternoon underneath the oak tree was so breathtaking as impulses began to run up my spine.
The spring air was making me sleepy as I rested my head on the prince's stomach.

"YOU ARE A BIG FAT LIAR AND YOU ARE TOO CALLOW FOR OUR HOME!" brought back all of the pain and sorrows as my sweaty, bloody, hot sizzling, nude body began to mop the dirty white bitter cold hard floor.
A high pitched screech filled reality with rejection as snot and blood started to mix.
Teeth were starting to chatter and my rosy lips are in constant motion as my nude and slippery body glided right across the dirty, white, cold, hard, floor.
Entire body was trembling and all ten fingers were drowning in the sea of thick, rich, blood.
"SHIT!!! I AM NOT RETARTED!!! PLEASE!!! LET ME SHOW YOU MY WONDERFUL PROGRAM!!!" was making my fists pound the dirty, white, bitter, cold, hard, floor as my greasy, slimy, hairy, legs began to kick.
"I HAVE MY HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA AND NOW, THE PEABRAINS ARE TELLING MY CRUSHED EGO THAT I MUST TAKE A BASIC SKILLS CLASS, BULLSHIT!!!" brought a huge waterfall right down my shiny, wet, face as the sea of thick, rich, blood grew deeper.
"TAKE THOSE PILLS, OR ELSE, WE WILL PLAY GUESSING GAMES WITH YOUR OPERATION!!!" caused the whole room disappear as my dark brown, teary eyes slowly closed.

"YVONNE, WAKE UP! IT TIME TO CHOW DOWN ON SOME CHOCOLATE PUDDING." was forcing the baby blue sky to open up once again as angel dust filled the spring air.
The gentleman who was holding his favorite girl was starting to cry because hell returned once and for all.
He began to rub her back and Mr. Sunshine grinned from ray to ray as the lady in pink yelled.
"I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU, AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU..." brought the prince's baby back to life as roses fell.

"OH JUD! DON'T FALL IN THE MUD AND WIND UP WITH CRUD ALL OVER YOUR CUTE FACE." magically made all of her bullet holes go bye-bye as another tender loving kiss was placed on the princess' cool, hot, lips.
Walking hand in hand with the only man who has grown to love me threw the devil out of bound.
"LET'S DINE IN BURGER KING TONIGHT, MY SWEET." brought the good old, Anton's days back to my happy soul as a rainbow tear landed on my handsome prince's shoulder.
The night was somewhat breezy and the tiny golden stars be sparkled around the crazy, old, moon.
The blond living legend quickly placed his warm, gentle hands on my cold, pale cheeks to wipe the hurt away.
Pushed the blond dude away from my bleeding soul as sweat washed all of the sweetness right down the tubes.
"BOY!!! GO TO HELL!!! I CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOUR LOVE, BUT JOANN CAN'T!!!!!!!!" just caused all of the tiny golden stars to crack as my frozen hurt body fell onto the midnight black, slick, street.
The handsome fox rushed to my side and squeezed the living daylights out of me as a light rain started to rinse the earth off.
"DIANE! I AM EXTREMELY SORRY FOR SHARING THE FLASHING COLOR THAT BURNS EVERYBODY TO A CRISP..." was melting my flowered print, outfit in slow motion as the boy next to me was slowly wiping my sexy, hot, perspiration with his damp, white, hanky.
My weak, heavy, dark brown eyes were slowly closing as the midnight sky turned into my worse nightmare.
"SHUT UP YVONNE!!! YOU CAN'T SPEAK AT ALL; HOWEVER, YOU CAN USE A COMMUNICATION BOARD AS A BACK UP AND A LIGHT TALKER FOR EVERYDAY USE." forced my sizzling hot, soaking wet, skin to rip right in half as the boy vanished and the horns from the devil were pointing at my huge bleeding heart.

Moving in all crazy directions was causing my bright, creamy, red, blood to flow out of my waxy ears as my crooked twisted feet snapped right off and began to race against time.
"YVONNE, YOU BETTER STOP SHAKING OR ELSE WE ARE GOING TO BREAK EVERY BONE IN YOUR BODY!!!" just caused my tender, bruised, nude figure to curl up right into a golf ball.
Could still see the old weasel in his gray suit marching up and down the depressing halls as a huge heavy leather whip hit my soft, baby, wet skin.

"MOMMY, COME RIGHT THIS INSTANT AND TAKE ME HOME!!! IIII LLOOVVEE YYOOUU SSSSOOO MMMUUCCHH!!!" was turning my bloody, slippery, nude figure into a combat zone as a ghost rose from my burning hot soul.
The crazy old moon put on his shades and a cool brisk wind forced the trees to sway.
There was a lull in the night air now as the full moon who was wearing his purple shades moaned.
"YOU ARE AN ADULT JUST LIKE THE REST OF US AND IF MY EGG HEART DOESN'T CHEER YOU UP, THEN I WILL GIVE YOU MY FROZEN UNDERWEAR." suddenly made the mad ghost hide underneath my overworked bleeding heart.
"JUST SAY HI HI AND WE WILL BE BACK TOGETHER SOON!!!" caused my dry cracked voice to laugh once again as new baby skin started to cover all the wounds.
Began to rock back and forth trying to recapture my youth as my watery, dark brown, eyes slowly opened.

Suddenly, the midnight black sky was turning into a raging, flickering burning, hot, sizzling fire as my greasy, dark, brown curly hair stood straight up.
Limbs were flailing like never before and mouth ran dry again as the flickering sizzling, hot, glowing, Halloween, orange, flames played games with my brand new, baby skin.
Large clumps of snot and hot boiling rainbow tears were cooling my black and blue body off in slow motion.
Heavy, thick, smoke was filling my almost dead lungs as my pure, white, yucky, skin slowly turned completely black.
Fireworks were playing with the hot, sizzling, exploding, flickering, golden flames as my nude body jumped ten feet high.
"AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! CUT IT OUT RIGHT NOW!!!!!!! SHIT!!!!!! WHERE IS ANTON???" just made the devil's steak knife appear in bloody sweaty left hand as pink, gray, and blue birthday balloons dangled underneath the burning fire.
Body wouldn't quit shaking and all of a sudden, I felt like an ice cube as goose bumps formed on my naked breasts.

"WE CAN DISCHARGE YOU... SO, WE WILL LEAVE YOU ALONE AND YOU CAN ATTEND COLLEGE." brought a fun date to a reality as all of my true friends joined me.
The raging evil fire finally died and all that you could see was happy Jellybelly cracking his egg hearts as tiny purple crystal drops flickered in the bright, beautiful, baby, blue sky.
Laughing like Farmer Brown and enjoying the early morning sun just brought Sara to reality as the prince stared at me.
"YVONNE HAS A HUGE CRUSH ON YOU, JUD... ARE YOU GOING TO GET MARRIED OR WHAT???" caused Sara to run with the wind and the fellow started screaming at his chubby doll.
Heartbeat sped up and Sara was now smashing her head against a brick wall as the kind fellow left his chubby doll.

"HEY, IT IS OKAY TO LOVE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART; SO THEREFORE, THERE IS NO NEED TO CRY..." caused Sara to placed her trembling arms around the prince's neck as people stopped to watch.
Breathing so deeply and smelling his golden light fluffy long hair made Sara vanish as the chubby doll came to make fun.
The thoughts of home brought my mother's cheery happy voice to my eardrums as all four lips finally joined.

Upset and I was just Mr. Blue who did not know what the heck to do.
Falling in love with another living legend was driving my veins insane.
About to cry out loud and nobody gave a shit if life was dazzling or life was going to pot.
Had strong desires to share my book of troubles with Diane's foxy hunk.
Could not seem to outsmart my lifetime pain, and sadness kept filling my happy, sparkling, eyes every time church bells ring.
Extremely jealous and felt like walking right through a glass door.

Just wanted to share the hurt, passion, joy, love, fears, and the intelligence with the dashing, young, prince.
Why? I had no idea; however, could feel a pure silk red rose every time that my rainbow heart spoke to him.
He did not know that flowers were starting to blossom in mother nature's soft, pale blue, sky.
Hated myself for exchanging eye contact with the male human race, but could not stand being in the dark, anymore!!!
Not looking for marriage, but a lifetime relationship would have suited my anger.
"Please, speak my language and never try to stab my crushed broken soul."
Not a little child any longer and ready to risk all of my hell for a small piece of heaven; didn't know why.

Did not want to convert over to a Mormon and it would have been a sin if my natural inner butterfly was destroyed.
Worked too damn hard to earn a pair of mother nature's wings and not going to change to please your stupid ego.
Proud to have hot, flashy ideas and to be the real Sara Norman for some strange reason.
Glad that I have suffered through my emotional childhood in a way because now, I was able to touch mother nature's pure white beads.
Loved to feel pure silk and to watch a sweet, baby, rose bloom into an angel.
Liked to dance in the nude and express my super strong passion with doves.
Family supported me in every possible way and they were screaming for joy just because my rainbow heart had grown so much.
Had a burning desire to share the color yellow with people who were from different areas in our shitty society.
Wanted to teach children how to love all creatures that were crying in hell.

"So, give me a chance to blow your mind away before you start your bitching."
Just a normal, pretty lady with real feelings and would have liked to communicate with your body.
Could show you sexy images in the moonlight, but you must respect my wonderful mind.
Not any lesser than God and not a super woman; therefore, I accepted myself completely, did you?
Could have cared less if the public stared because we had the power to soar in the sweet, baby blue, sky.
Felt like playing with mother nature's light blue, cotton sheet on a pure, white, fluffy cloud with you.

Lesser you for listening to my crappy speech and for making some of my madness disappear.
Very impressed that you could be so candid, so full of life, and so patient with me.
Lesser you for feeding me a happy meal and for sharing your funny sense of humor.
Nobody else demonstrated how to walk in between the tiny, hot pink, hearts and to kiss the golden sunlight.
You have given me hope that one day soon a gentle knight will be loving me.
Never thought that my female hormones would stand up and start to enjoy womanhood, again.
Lesser you for planting new sexy daydreams in my story book and for opening your heart.

About to cry because we were from two different worlds and even though you hated my insides, I still loved you.
"Go ahead and make love to Joann or Heather, but you will suffer like hell at the end."
Felt so sorry for you because you could have had pure joy for the rest of your life.
If you were going to shit all over my pal Diane, then I would have had kicked your ass right up to the moon.
Did not know why?
You could not be my friend, but really wished that we could start fresh again.
Hurting more than ever before and just felt so lost without your callow, blue, eyes.
Extremely sorry for moving so fast, but honey, you turned me on for some immature reason, hated myself.
Maybe, within time, we could meet at another place and become friends but reality probably won't let it be cool.

Did not need you any longer because I was my own person and did not need you to prove that I could love.
It was not meant to be, but to be frank, so happy to find out the real truth.
However, things have been pretty dull without your warm personality.
Willing to do anything just to have you look at me as a fun loving pearl drop.
So sorry for sharing the hurt and trying to draw a perfect ring on your little heart; however, you wanted to know.
Should have known better but I was blinded by your charm and your special love for people.
Felt a huge loss and all that I did was mope around this looney place trying to make Diane giggle.
However, if it was not for you, those magical words would have not existed and our jolly times would not have kept me alive.
Thank you very much for causing my almost dead rose to grow and if you happen to see the light at the end of your perfect rainbow, let me know...

Dead to the world and desperately felt like crying for mamma's warm heart.
Driving around in circles all day long was a pain in the ass, but someone had to fight the wings of hell.
If it wasn't for mamma, this torture chamber just wouldn't have existed in Sara's life as the English language began to perk up the insipid environment.
Whispering one word at a time and moving slowly to the beat of her favorite song was causing pure white doves to soar in the deep, baby blue, sky.
She was wearing a pale, yellow cotton, dress and high heels to express her tenderness and luke warm emotions.
"IT'S SO HARD WAITING- WAITING FOR A FALLING STAR-" was causing the woman to blush as a cool gentle breeze began to make all of the tall, maple trees sway.
Her soft, pale yellow, cotton, dress was starting to twirl as huge, puffy, white, clouds began to sail around the jolly old sun.
Smelling the fresh, dark green, grass was causing the lady's heartbeat to danced in fast motion as a big fat, happy smile started to blossom.

So, full of life and just tip toeing on a friendship rose was so Goddamn breathtaking as Sara began to screech.
"THE BEST WAY TO LOVE ME WAS THAT YOU HAVE TO LET ME BE AN I." brought back the painful memories of James Lee as luke warm, salty tears began to sting Ms. Norman's deep, brown eyes.
The mild summer breeze was making her perfect long, dark brown, doll, hair flowed in slow motion as the strong golden sun started to laugh.
Suddenly, her silky, peachy, bra snapped right open and her Cerebral Palsy was slowly returning as the huge, puffy, white clouds turned gray.

"PLEASE, LET ME ENTER YOUR WORLD OF SILENCE SO THAT I COULD UNDERSTAND YOU BETTER..." was causing her pale yellow, cotton, dress to lift up as the fresh, dark, green, grass tickles her long, flat, nose.
Her Fruit of the Loom underwear was starting to slide off her cute butt as her shiny, black, leather, high heels vanished.
Kicking to get away from James was causing sweet perspiration to coat her angel, soft, skin as the happy sun hid behind the heavy, dark, gray, clouds.
All four, candy yellow, buttons were slowly popping open on the lady's cotton dress as the bright green, leaves began to rustle.
She removed her right soaking wet arm from the pale, yellow cotton, dress as her silky, peachy, bra straps fell off the lady's shoulders.

Raindrops were starting to fall and Sara was going to have a heart attack if she did not speak her mind.
"JAMES LEE, GO DIE IN HELL AND NEVER MAKE LOVE TO MY BODY, I HATE YOUR GUTS!!!" forced her pale, yellow cotton, dress rip right in half as both cups of her silky, peachy, bra began to slip off Sara's rose colored, nipples.
Laying in the cool, soft, dark, green grass in the nude was bone chilling as scars appeared on her hips.
Hands were in constant motion because the upsetting stories that were told would not come to an end as chills began to dry up the sweat.
"SARA, SPEAK MY LANGUAGE SO THAT YOU COULD DEAL WITH REALITY!!!" was causing the lady's chest to heave and thick snot was flowing just like a huge waterfall from her long, flat, nose.
It was raining like cats and dogs all over the land and the lovely Sara was still signing her life away.
Her fine, dark, brown, long, hair just turned into a piece of sailor rope and voice was cracking as super high pitched screeches instantly shattered the whole earth.
"OH SARA,HOW COULD I GET CLOSE TO YOU WHEN YOU WON'T EVEN SAY MY FACE???" caused her curl up as brand new, sizzling hot, tears fell right down her flushed cheeks.
Completely drenched from the cold hard pouring rain was making the lady's nude figure tremble as visions of having deaf babies with James forced her scream for fear.
"HOW COULD YOU REJECT ME AFTER THREE WHOLE WEEKS OF MENDING MY CHIPPED HEART, AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH???!!! YOU WERE NOTHING BUT A PIECE OF SHIT, FUCK!!!!!!!!!!" suddenly produced fresh, thick, hearty red, blood to flow out of the young lady's large mouth as the dark green, grass began to turn into a nasty, brownwish, yellow.
Her nude, scared, and sweaty body was now bathing in the deep sea of hot sizzling, red blood as the jolly old, sun started to cry.
A flock of birds were flying right over her cracked face trying to sing, "Waiting for a Falling Star."
The tall, maple trees were still swaying back and forth as the cold raindrops landed on each flashy, green leaf.
Still raining quite hard and it was so peaceful without human joy as Sara slowly drifted up to Heaven.

"IF YOU PRAY TO GOD, THEN ALL OF YOUR TROUBLES WILL FADE AWAY..." brought Heaven to life as the thick, misty, fog clears.
No more evil sprits, no more crying for help, no more operation pain, no more guilt trips, and no more isolation!!!
Only love, happiness, joy, and the cool blue, waves from a calm, peaceful, ocean existed.
Sara finally opened her watery eyes as she began to laugh, moan and move in slow motion on a large, angel soft, cloud.
"HUSH MY CHILD... IT WILL BE OKAY IF YOU GO BACK AS YVONNE MELWASSA SINGER." suddenly turned the pure, foggy, white, sky hot pink and all of the huge, puffy white, clouds were slowly coming to life.
Sara's beautiful nude figure was starting to catch a cold as she tried to sign, "HOW COULD I LOVE AGAIN???"
Weakened from all of the deadly sins and all that the lady wanted was to be equal with mankind as the baby soft, clouds started to hum.
She was not any lesser than God as her puffy, cotton, bed began to hug the woman's nude moist, trembling, body.

All of a sudden, a bolt of lightning zapped the lady's puffy, cotton, bed as the heavy thick fog began to roll in.
Her deep, pretty, brown eyes could not seem to focus anymore and eardrums were beginning to pick up the horrifying sounds as the hot pink, sky turned black.
Trying to cover both ears was just impossible as the Cerebral Palsy slowly interfered with Sara's brain messages.
Her puffy, cotton, bed was slowly roasting the trembling nude body alive as Sara grew frightened.

SARA NORMAN, YOU BELONG IN THE DEVIL'S BREW BECAUSE YOU HAVE JUST CAUSED HUMAN SUFFERING, HA! HA!" made her jump off the puffy, cotton, bed as the black sky began to twinkle.
FALLING!!!
FALLING!!!
FALLING!!!
"MAMMA! PPPPPPPPPLLLEEASSEEEEEEEE LLLOOVVEEE MMEEEE OONNEE MMMOREEE TTTTTIMMMEEEE AAANDDD HHHHHOLDDD MMMEE TTTTIIIGGHHTTT, AAAAHHHH!!" was creating the life threatening, golden gates to vibrate as another dreamy, puffy, white, cloud broke Sara's fall.
The other baby soft, white clouds were slowly circling her now baby soft, cotton, bed as she began to rub her rose colored, nipples with both index fingers.
Legs were slowly pretending to walk as little tiny, pale pink, hearts began to cover her belly button.
Arms were slowly reaching to feel the color of love as the other light, puffy white, clouds began to whisper.
"GIRL! DON'T GIVE UP NOW BECAUSE YOU HAVE A LOT GOING AND IT WOULD BE TERRIBLE IF YOU LET THE DING BATS WIN..." was causing the young lady to weep and fall into a deep sleep as the thick fog began to surround her baby soft, cotton bed.

"JUD, I LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND AND I COULD'T STOP THINKING OF ENDING MY HELLWASH LIFE BECAUSE I WAS FRIGHTENED TO DEATH OF LOSING YOU..." brought the stupid nursing home to reality as I wept about wasting mother nature's knowledge.
Not being able to share your sorrows and your great will to live was breaking my shattered heart in two as Chicken Pox converted my life into a living hell.
Crying for mommy did not ease my operation pain, roaring emotions, or negative attitude.
"LET ME ATTEND COLLEGE AND LET ME EXPLORE ALL OF MY OPTIONS WITH A VOLUNTEER, HELP!!!!!!" brought back hurtful memories of immature Joann sounding my weak ego down as Loud Mouth began to wine at the dumb, fat, clowns.

Stupid bed continued rolling and my sleepy body did not stop jumping as the dumb, fat, clowns were starting to party all night.
Bright light was blinding my blood shot, eyes as the braindead IVAC thermometer stuck me like the devil's needle.
"OH JUD, PLEASE DON'T LISTEN TO JOANN!!! SHE BELONGS IN A CHILD CWERE CENTER, IT'S NOT FAIR!!!" caused the hospital sheet slip right off the solid, rock, mattress.
Lips were pressed against the puffy, soft, white, pillow as both of my Dumbo ears perked up to the terrifying bitching.
Night tears were burning my frightened, wrinkled, face and felt like trash as thoughts of taking computer classes rushed up to my soul.

"LET ME OUT OF MY ROOM!!! I MAY BE DEAD BEAT; BUT I WAS NOT SICK YOU SHITHEADS!!!" was energizing my complicated mind to hate the only man that I loved as my holy heart began to sob.
Did not want to understand the shaggy dog's dumb excuses anymore and wasn't going to accept them either.
"ATTENDING CHURCH WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN VISITING ME!!! IF THAT WAS HOW YOU FEEL, THEN, THERE WAS NO REASON TO CONTINUE OUR FRIENDSHIP, MAKES ME SICK!!!" caused my ring finger to dig up my poor, swollen, thumb as the ding bats stick the mindless IVAC right up my sweaty butt.
Threw up all over the old junky, hospital bed because my crippled body refused to suffer as Loud Mouth began to cry for relief and for the Lord's help.
"NOBODY WAS PERFECT AND WE DON'T LIVE IN A PERFECT WORLD..." was causing my guilty soul to review all of my heart warming, friendly letters as Buttercup, the wonder dog, began to lick the tears.
Spent many long lonely days producing fine art and all that I get was crap as seven o'clock arrives; might as well be dead.

"YOU DON'T HAVE TO STAY IN YOUR ROOM." was causing the little tiny, pale pink, hearts to appear as visions of sliding down a crystal clear rainbow becomes reality.
Out of breath, but I didn't give a shit as a high pitched screech filled the dull, filthy, air with joy.
Giggling my head off just because the master of the house had a heart attack and I WON THE FIGHT!
Winning one battle was just like graduating high school, but my lost, pondering, soul was still crying over spilled milk.
Cared about Jud very much and prayed that he could have spoken my language.
"God dammit, just get me a good computer job or send me to college" so that the hot fire could die as I finally fell asleep on my baby soft, cotton, cloud.