...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
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A Journal of Sorts
"I will buy you a garden
where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house
way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life"
~ Everclear ~
there will most likely be updates and links added to the last few weeks of journals when I find some writing space and catch up on the deeper rambles, resolutions, and creative muses... for now, I start a new week with hope...
the phone appears to be working... will wonders never cease, huh?... I'll try not to think about the opportunities for a better life I missed in the last two weeks thanks to betrayal and poor phone service... hey, I didn't say I started the new week without a little bitter taste in my mouth... I've still stuck homeless in limbo and without my stuff (just realized today that I don't have my checkbook... most most of my bills are past due cuz the mail took almost two months to catch up with me and some of it still hasn't... I'm told again and again, don't trust others with the important stuff... so what's love?... anyway, so much for a credit rating or financial security or a better life, huh... but then, I have a better life cuz it's mine, so there)...
and I remember all the people I've helped along the way... literally bought new lives for some... I wonder if they self-destructed or if they built upon the foundations I helped build... I wonder if any of they think of me... and how... and why... and why they chose to disappear... I wonder if they are reading right now... I wonder if they know that, to me, keeping in touch is worth so much more than anything I gave them... I wonder if they care... I wonder if they ever did... I believe they did... I wonder if they do...
if I believe in you
more than you believe in me
that's alright, it's ok
take your time and you might see
the love inside is innocent
offered with no strings on
and when you find yours
all your fears will be gone
but if I believe in you
more than you believe in you
it doesn't matter what I do
you won't believe me
maybe you left your faith in your past
maybe your confidence was not meant to last
but you can bring it back
yes you can believe
you are what you dream
accept and receive
this gift of love is for you
this gift of truth is what you can do
this gift of light is nothing new
you've had it all along
and if you find it again
maybe you heard
the gift of this song
I believe in you
your heart is still true
deeper than the scars
is where you are
if you believe in you
you'll know what to do
your heart will lead you to
your dreams... let them come true
make them come true
believe in you
yeah... this one's for you
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