...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
... my "Keep In Touch" pages ... my "Keep In Touch" pages ... my "Keep In Touch" pages ... my "Keep In Touch" pages ... my "Keep In Touch" pages ...
A Journal of Sorts
"he could've tuned in, tuned in
but he tuned out
a bad time, nothing could save him
alone in a corridor, waiting, locked out"
~ Pearl Jam ~
challenging... crowded house... no space... no privacy... I did it to myself by trusting someone... but do I shut myself down and give up on people just because several (all of those I've really let inside or really given control to, in fact) have betrayed me in the end... maybe one didn't?... maybe...
frequent requests to do this or that interrupt my concentration as I try to find a job and place to live online... forget composing a professional target cover letter... and forget about dressing for success... alas, I dug the hole and she buried me in it when I took her hand to help me out of it...
at least I have the phone line... and my adopted family here does do what they can to help... it's just so draining and I'm so drained already... alas, stop the self-pity moments and focus on getting back into a place I can call mine... and appreciate the couch and realize it's their living room I'm parked in... yes, just because someone screwed you royally does not mean it's time to stop appreciating what others do for you...
sheeesh, working through this crap is tough without a job... focus on worklife... Monday, get a job... give up the thoughts of professional positions and career and comfortable success and just take anything to live anywhere as independently as possible... lower standards... that's life...
at least that's life in this culture for this trusting child...
I really hate betrayals...
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