2002 HEARTBEATS
once upon a time I was falling in love now I'm only falling apart nothing I can do total eclipse of the heart ~ Bonnie Tyler ~ once upon a time I was living in love... and when I take my heart outside, nobody seems to notice... maybe I don't wear it on my sleeve anymore... or maybe ... deja vu?... of course... it is not the time for long freaky sixties hair... and the slouch exaggerates the extra pounds around the gut... falling in love would certainly movitate me to jump around and lose the gut, but it's been a while since I fell in love by myself... actually, it's been a long time since I've lived alone and it's not as easy to fall into creative fantasies when roommates or strangers are around... alas, the artist is mad and who understands?... now when you come to heartbeats, you may bring some expectations... most would be foolish, as expectations usually are, but one fair expectation is that heartbeats might have something to do with the heart... either feelings or the physical lub-dub... and it would be nice if there was some depth here, since if all I'm doing is rambling on about shallow feelings, I might as well be watching telvision... but ultimately, there are no rules... and I can be as wasted or wasteful as anybody... and I have gotten shallow, laid fallow, sallow, hollow... ya falla?... time passes long feeling empty unwanted, unloved unmentioned somewhere along the way I learned apprehension self-doubt and pity lost the challenge of life on the edge and New York City wandered long feeling lonely abused, betrayed in denial somewhere along the way I forgot how to smile feeling so shitty lost the desire of life at the top and New York City trials in Toronto busted in Buffalo over it in Orlando and dreams of California but life isn't pretty when giving up wins and the best memories are New York City time passes long feeling foolish a beggar of dreams uninvited it was so long ago I learned unrequited another hopeless ditty lost the inspiration of falling in love and New York City lost in memories of falling in love and New York City when memory and fantasy are blurred for all to see a heart beats in obscurity can anyone hear me? lost in memories of falling in love and New York City lost in miseries of falling in love and New York City lost in tragedies of falling in love and New York City lost in memories of falling in love and New York City 
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