2002 HEARTBEATS
"my scream got lost in a paper cup you think there's a heaven where some screams have gone I got 25 bucks and a cracker do you think it's enough to get us there..." ~ Tori Amos ~ you may know the story, what I am trying to say, before I even say it, if I can... I keep losing the words, the way, the music fades to black, I fall off track and feel i lack the means to dream, to express what I mean... and the heart goes silent... sleeping... crying... dreaming in the unknown, unremembered, uninvited... silent... it's not that I don't care anymore, I just don't feel it's not that I don't feel anymore, I just don't want to it's not that I don't want anymore, I just don't know it's not that I don't know anymore, I'm just afraid it's not that I am too scared, I'm just too tired it's not that I am too tired, I'm too depressed it's not that I am too depressed, I'm just too dead it's not that I am to dead, I just don't care and I go around pretending for smiles keep people away like any animal bearing teeth you knw what they mean to say and yet we pretend it's happiness and everything is alright but it's not that it's wrong it's just not right waiting for the punch line the commercial cue waiting for the segue that says we are through waiting for the punch line the commercial cue waiting for the segue what else can we do waiting for the punch line the commercial cue waiting for the segue that leads me to you it's not that I don't care anymore, I just don't have anyone to care about and nobody cares about me not here not now not eye to eye hand to hand breast to breat where it can not be denied where the channel does not change where there are no commercials just sharing the next breath and living until death do us part right here right now heart to heart waiting is still the hardest part 
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