LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS
BEING SOME EXCERPTS FROM RAMBLINGS OF THE VARIOUS CHARACTERS WHO LIVE, VISIT, OR WANDER WHERE THEY WILL GO TO WRITE
LETTERS TO STRANGERS
[ FROM THE LONELINESS EMAIL GROUP] gee, I wish I wasn't lonely I wish I had more time to share I wish you knew me better somehow I wish you knew how much I care I wish you knew how good it feels to know that you are still out there I wish I had more time to tell you thank you all for being here... in some strange way that is challenging to explain, every time I see another mail flow through this email group I am inspired to believe that loneliness is not eternal, that it has an end in sharing... if only we could all be in that "right place" more often... this right place that allows us to reach out past whatever it is that keeps us alone... for me, it's a myriad of things and circumstances, mostly inside... like wondering if anybody really cares about what I might share... I know some people really do, but darned if I don't convince myself nobody cares sometimes... and sometimes I am not down or feeling sorry for myself at all, sometimes I'm a bouncy, secure, and happy child and just all wrapped up in survival (like right now)... I've been working 17-18 hour shifts a lot, sleeping in the car (my choice, don't let it bring you down... it's to get extra sleep instead of spending time driving as work is some distance from the places I can call home right now)... soon I'll find a place closer to work and "go home" more often :) last time I checked email was at least a week ago... my primary "group" address was bouncing as of the 6th, yipes... I've got to find some time to catch up on mail (personal) and groups... at least my primary email addresses did not fill up or bounce... it just keeps piling up :} also one of my adopted family members here in Orlando is near death again... the doctors say she won't make it this time, but they've said that before... that keeps me offline and I must find more time to visit with them... alas, the life cycle must continue, but it's sad to watch one come to it's end no matter how inevitible it is... life is not all sad though... life is very much all work, for the moment, but not all sad... and for ye of interest in me, I work with what are called "at-risk youth"... children and adolescents who, for a variety of reasons, have behavior and psychiatric problems that require a level of residential care and treatment that their family can not or will not provide... the pay is not so great, so much overtime is needed for the moment... but it's challenging and rewarding in many ways and a good stepping stone position as I return to the health care and human services world... helping is one of my favorite things to do :) and one of this week's mails tells me a couple of friends from England are visiting here in June... it'll be their second visit and I'm looking forward to it... this is the first time I'm sitting down with the computer in a while so I'm gonna keep this brief and be selfish with my writing time... I'm feeling good overall, tired but happy with me... and if you happen to be in Orlando and want a friend... 407-426-7101 is my voicemail... I am kicking myself to check it more often (I finally checked it today after two weeks... I will check more often)... I still plan to get a pager as soon as I have the extra money and I'll put that number on my contact page on the website when I get it... snail mail is picked up about once a month at PO Box 592511 Orlando Florida 32859-2511 to you who write to me and you who check the website, your mail and knowing you check the website means much more than I can express at the moment - lifeline is a word that approaches the worth you have in my mind... and some of this mail to you will be part of the next journal entry because you've helped me gather the info and express what I'd like to say to the few people who consistently KIT :) hope life is smiling more than frowning for you... is it? gee, I wish I had more time to make friends I wish I was more understood I wish you knew how much I care about you I wish I could do more good and I wish you knew how good it feels to know that you are still out there I wish I had more time to tell you thank you all for being here... honest love, ric "I'm gonna' sit and watch the web, that you will build this day Will it be a thread of love you weave, it's yours to show the way" ~ John Lodge ~ (home on the web) (more email groups) [ THE LONELINESS EMAIL GROUP ] [ is for anyone who has ever felt lonely ] [ to know others are out there ] to subscribe, send a blank message to: loneliness-subscribe@egroups.com ... a friend is a stranger waiting to be met ... a friend is a stranger wanting to be met ... a friend is a stranger willing to be met ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS is a garden in NEWSBEE'S UNIVERSE and a part of THIS PLACE  EMAIL
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