LETTERS TO STRANGERS
...WORDS I HAVE POSTED PUBLICALLY IN VARIOUS PLACES IN RESPONSE TO OTHERS WORDS...
...a friend is a stranger waiting to be met...
PAIN
THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
LETTERS TO STRANGERS
...WORDS I HAVE POSTED PUBLICALLY IN VARIOUS PLACES IN RESPONSE TO OTHERS WORDS...
...a friend is a stranger waiting to be met...
PAIN
December 24, 1997
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>> : > > I really love
>> : > >him so much I can't let go, he said he doesn't remember even having
>> : > >good times together. I am so dead inside
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>> : > What the hell's the matter with you?!!! Stay out of his way.Don't
>> : > have anything to do with him.
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>> :
>> : Seems harder than anything, yesterday I went out with a friend, guy freind
>> : he made me feel a little bit better, but Kevin caled today and tormented
>> : me, the last thing he said was the worst, "He said when your alone and
>> : your with him and things are good remember one word, Kevin" He said
>> : it so evily, as if a curse, but he is right, I don't want to talk
>> : to him he is trashing every wonderful memory, he is not the man
>> : I love anymore. He is nothing but pain. Sad is the freind is just
>> : a freind and nothing more, I am not ready to find a relationship yet.
>> :
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>> it should be "friend"...
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>What a cruel response to someone in pain.
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>Shame shame :(
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some of us hold out our arms to embrace the one in pain
because we know our own pain and want to be embraced ourselves
some of us turn away from pain, even strike out at it
because we know our own pain and hate ourselves for it
when it hurts, the challenge is to continue feeling
giving up on feeling doesn't make it hurt less
it just makes you numb and insensitive and yes, even cruel...
and ignorance is not bliss,
it is only the death of awareness
of consciousness, of self...
and then you wonder why you're cynical
or confused...
or unhappy...
if you dare admit the truth to yourself...
I want to thank, most recently,
[names omitted]
and also everyone else
who express their feelings of loss here
I embrace your pain and feel my own
and if reminds me I am still alive
and that means there's still hope
it takes courage to expose the open wounds in public
for those afraid to feel will offer thoughtless responses
we seek sensitivity
and in some, provoke insensitivity
but I remind myself, and hopefully you,
that insensitivity is just an expression of fear
from someone choosing to hide their true feelings
in a callous wit
or a cold distain
or even a careless caress
to them I suggest
don't hate the mirror for reflecting your pain
I thank the mirrors once again
for shining light on the wounds
so that they may be cleaned and exposed to fresh air
so they may heal
my heart will always bleed for one
for the one who went away
the one I gave my life and soul
seems just like yesterday
there is someone
I am waiting for
in the silence
of my loneliness
there is someone
I am waiting for
a little longer...
my eyes will always shed a tear
for the one who would not stay
but through the tears I still can see
that you are here today
and I reach out to share with you
for the one inside of me
for all I am is all I've been
and all I can still be
still there is someone
I've been searching for
in the silence
of my eyes
there is someone
I am waiting for
a little longer...
I'll turn off no part of my heart
for I love my memories
as background music in my life
for new possibilities
and I still dream the same old dream
that someone will see
all I've been is all I am
and all I want to be
and I still dream the same old dream
that someone...
will want to know...
all of me
...
there is someone
I am waiting for
in the silence
of my dreams
there is someone
I am waiting for
a little longer...
may we all care about each other a little more today...
ric
"it's so hard to find a new dream...
with an old one in your eyes"
-- Gary Moore --
"if you try to look, but you don't touch
then you won't touch, but you'll never feel
and if you don't feel, you'll never cry
and if you don't cry... you'll never heal"
-- Harry Chapin from "If You Want To Feel"
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