LETTERS TO STRANGERS
...WORDS I HAVE POSTED PUBLICALLY IN VARIOUS PLACES IN RESPONSE TO OTHERS WORDS...
...a friend is a stranger waiting to be met...
Lonely
THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
LETTERS TO STRANGERS
...WORDS I HAVE POSTED PUBLICALLY IN VARIOUS PLACES IN RESPONSE TO OTHERS WORDS...
...a friend is a stranger waiting to be met...
Lonely
July 11, 1998
>Hi Ric,
>
> Hope your week went well. You're a dam good friend to have on this NG.
>
> Things have gotten civil again and as with many has brought me out a
>little again. Sometimes I just don't have the strength/desire (two words
>that can mean the same thing in emotional situations) to be able to post.
>Theres been a few nice additions this week as I'm sure you'll notice.
>
> You have a talent in expressing your words and making people feel good
>about themselves, Thanx.
>
thank you... after burying my nose firmly in the posts all day today,
I finally glanced down at the new posts and seeing this really inspired
a big smile... sorry it took so long for me to notice (hey, I'm up to
July 4th though LOL :)
ok, I'm moved... touched even... got a tear to fall... one thing just
setting in is just how alone I let myself get... some unexpected
recognition and caring like this reminds me of how much I miss friends
and sharing and I'm turning into a puddle of mush so I'm gonna go eat
some chocolate and take a walk now (my back needs it - I still have no
table or chair, so this is all typed in awkward positions on the bed...
mentioning this of course reminds me that awkward positions on the bed
might be more tolerable if I wasn't alone, which leads me back around to
loneliness (oh, is *that* why I'm here? :}
oh, the little boy in me is wanting to cuddle too much... funny (or not
really) how even sex isn't the primary urge... but just to cuddle up and
feel the physical presense of another body who cares about me...
maybe it's time to get another puppy :}
ok, I'm back... got me pouring my heart out already... so what else is
this going to inspire (better yet, what will I let it inspire?)...
Imaginary Friends
feeling so lonely
don't want to bring you down
feeling too lonely
another new kid in town
crying won't help me
it just scares people away
cuz I'm a guy, so when I cry
nobody knows what to say
grown men aren't supposed to cry
but I'm feeling sorry for myself
don't want to take it to a bottle
so I keep it up on a shelf
grown men aren't supposed to cry
but I'm feeling so lonely tonight
don't want to play the social games
so I just come here and write
imaginary friends
words upon electric winds
words that touch my heart
words that reach my soul
but they're only words...
imaginary friends
what I would give for your hand
just someone who understands
this is not what I had planned
for my life...
feeling so lonely
betrayed by my own belief
feeling too lonely
getting too wrapped up in grief
crying won't cut it
cuz I'm not a little boy
just have to rough it
looking for a little joy
grown men aren't supposed to feel this much
but I do so what about it?
don't want to lie to myself
don't want to live without it
grown men aren't supposed to need this much
but I do so what can I do
maybe find someone who understands
maybe there's a friend in you
imaginary friends
words upon electric winds
words that try to say I'm real
words that try to make me feel
imaginary friends
what I wouldn't give to see
your eyes looking back at me
maybe then we wouldn't be
so lonely
so lonely
feeling so lonely
don't want to bring you down
but I don't want to lie, I'm so lonesome I could die
just another new kid in town...
ok, enough, I've expressed myself... time for self-preservation valves
to slow the flow... thanks for listening... thanks for caring... thanks
for being there... thanks for being you... more will follow, when I'm
feeling less hollow...
honest love, ric
IRL (IN REAL LIFE): please understand my life is so busy these days that
my on-line time is limited to weekends, so expect responses from me only
once a week for a while (but I still eagerly look for your responses :)
typos are free, so I include lots ;)
something to say to me?... write! :) (click reply to author)
when I have time, I'll include my ICQ # again :)
for more info, other paths (most yet to be discovered or created), and
possibly shocking disclosures (or at least more babble) check out
http://www.hotstart.com/wp/hotstartanon.shtml
and for the latest info about me in this life (real? ;) surf over to
http://members.wbs.net/homepages/a/n/o/anonanon.html
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