LETTERS TO STRANGERS
...WORDS I HAVE POSTED PUBLICALLY IN VARIOUS PLACES IN RESPONSE TO OTHERS WORDS...
...a friend is a stranger waiting to be met...
Dear John
THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
Dear John
LETTERS TO STRANGERS
...WORDS I HAVE POSTED PUBLICALLY IN VARIOUS PLACES IN RESPONSE TO OTHERS WORDS...
...a friend is a stranger waiting to be met...
Dear John
July 19, 1998
>I have been trying to get through this whole loneliness thing. I think
>that I am more depressed at being alone now than I am that my wife
>has left me. I fear so bad that I will always be alone. That no
>matter who I somehow convince that I am a good guy and they decide
>that they want to be with me, they will eventualy leave. It hurts
>so bad that the vows, commitments and promises were broken. I think
>back to our wedding day and it seems so worthless now.
>It seems that every woman I end up with falls "in love" with me for
>how I treat them and all of my good qualities, but always ends up
>leaving and telling me that I am the cause.
>I just feel so lonely and I fear so bad that I will be alone forever.
>I want to get out and meet people and do things, but I am restricted
>by certain things. At times I tell myself that I won't let them stop
>me, but eventually I feel bad enough not to even have the strength.
>I read the posts hear and feel all of the love and support that goes
>on, and can't help but not want to be a part of that and contribute
>myself.
>Thanks for listening everybody. I hope that I can get better and
>stop feeling so bad.
>Thanks
>john
I wrote this for a friend named John...
I know a man
hangin on the years
false hope for a love
long gone in old tears
but he will not let go
he doesn't want to know
that she's really gone
or how to carry on
oh John, what has it done to you?
John, you were so proud my friend
John, where's the great friend I knew?
oh John, don't let this be how it ends...
he's taken the drugs
the doctors prescribe
he's lost everything
and everything's denied
and he calls her up
asks her to come back
he won't change her mind
and his has one track
oh John, how can I help you carry on
John, you've got so much to give
John, please face it she is gone
oh John, you've still got so much life to live...
he stumbles through his days
doesn't care about anything
lost two houses and cars and more
doesn't care what tomorrow brings
like a lost little child he cries
as if he can't make it on his own
and the years just pass him by
and he is more alone
oh John, please don't throw your life away
John, my friend please - don't be a jerk
John, sometimes, no matter what you do or say
oh John, sometimes it just doesn't work
he moved in with his dad
drives a taxi for a dime
walks around looking so sad
like he's commited some crime
and he blames himself for everything
he just can't seem to let go
I wrote this song, but he won't hear...
maybe he's a little like someone you know...
John, how can I help you carry on
John, you've got so much to give
John, please face it she is gone
oh John, you've still got so much life to live
... maybe it'll help someone else... and maybe he'll hear it someday...
anyway, i'll keep trying and thank him... for ironically, he's helped me
stay out of the trap he's in by staying in it for so long...
honest love, ric
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I can't make you feel something you won't..."
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