random thoughts
K wrote ...
>I talk to myself...
>
we all should... people who don't have no clue about themselves...
>thoughts running through my head.
>
try to keep up with them :)
>They're so intense... the conversations I have with myself, the
>scenarios that playon my mind... that I can't tell if I said that
>in my mind or out loud. I'm so deep into my thoughts that I have
>to look up and make sure nobody's looking at me, to verify that
>I'm not crazy. It's been like this for a long time.
>
keep it... stay intense... focus and do something with it when you have the opportunity... be patient and alert to the chances life will present along the way... try not to let others get in your way... say excuse me if you must, but continue... what other people think about you reflects more about what they think about themselves than what they think about you... it makes sense if you want it too...
>That leads me to thinking that maybe I -am- crazy, and everyone knows
>it, but they just don't say anything because they're too polite and
>don't want to insult or upset me.
everyone has an opinion... you choose your own... and you choose who's opinion matters to you... make your opinion matter most, for it is the only opinion that moves your hands and lives your life... when choosing others to respect, try to choose others who's opinions inspire you to think and feel, even if they disagree with you... try to avoid those who's opinions judge you, for judgments are their way of trying to control you and that is not their job or right... choose those who inspire you to feel less burdened than you felt before, for they are your friends...
>I used to think the whole world was against me. I didn't think it all
>the time, just when I thought really intensely. I thought everyone
>was there to see how well I could cope, how well I could deal with all the
>shit that was happening. I know that's not true, but it's an
>interesting thought. It's like the whole world revolving around you,
>only in a negative way.
I think we all do, but most don't believe in themselves enough to maintain the self-esteem and balance between ego (self) and conscience (others) to stay at the center of their own universe while still being aware and sensitive to the world around them... we each can only view the world - everything - from our own perspective with our own eyes, ears, senses... and everything effects each of us uniquely...
I try to choose to see everything as a potential learning experience whether it was designed specifically for me or not... and the goal is to make the most of it, therein giving my own individual perception as much right as anyone's to experience the moment and produce whatever it may inspire... those who can, do... those who let fear or others stop them, don't... for those who don't life can be very confusing...
some dream, some grumble, some put others down rather than face their own self-imposed limits and inadequacies, some do harm... I think it's cuz they forget that they are responsible for their actions because they forget they are the center of their individual universe... finding the fine line between selfishness and self-awareness isn't always easy, but it is the answer... at least it is for me...
> -Karen.
>
>--
>"As a matter of fact, I swallowed one of these about two hours ago.
>And the explanation is that it is, in fact... my hand."
thanks for inspiring more of my thoughts with yours...
newsbee
"I am exactly what I am,
and maybe not the way you'd like to see me be...
I look outside long as I can,
then I close my eyes and watch my world unfold before me"
~ Anna McGarrigle - C S Holland ~
... a friend is a stranger waiting to be met ... a friend is a stranger wanting to be met ... a friend is a stranger willing to be met ...
