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LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS ... LETTERS TO STRANGERS
... BEING SOME EXCERPTS FROM RAMBLINGS OF THE VARIOUS CHARACTERS WHO LIVE, VISIT, OR WANDER THROUGH THE LAND OF AH ...
THE LAND OF AH
... we're off to see the magic, the wonderful magic of ah ...
...we hear the magic lives inside so it is wherever we are ... wherever whenever whomever we are, the the magic's where it always was...
...inside the heart inside the mind inside... inside of us when we dare not to hide... we're off to see the magic, the wonderful magic inside...
hurt
K wrote...
>This is raw.
>
>Not previously written, like in my thought book.
>
>This is real.
>
>There's this person... this wonderful human being... and I'm afraid I've
>been horrible. I never really thought he would be interested in me. I
>liked him, then he didn't appear to be interested in me. Then the
>emails started. And kept going. And now... now I'm afraid I've hurt him.
>
>I sent a long email to him about life with me and how I don't want to be
>hurt... and he sent me back a short one stating that he got my email and
>hopefully we could talk about it in person. It was a very cold email.
>It hurt. It hurt me, and I'm afraid I've hurt him.
>
>How do I do this? S is wonderful... more than wonderful... he likes
>having me around, and I love being around him. I was afraid this would
>happen. How can I be sure? I thought if I finally found him, my soul
>mate, I wouldn't be tempted anymore. I think I was wrong.
>E is the kind of person I would have been afraid of in high school...
>and now I find us growing close. Is it just a good friendship? Why do
>I always want it to be more? Well, I'm not going to cheat on S.
>He's too wonderful for that. I thank J every day for introducing us.
>
>I just hope I didn't hurt E.
>
>These are my shallow thoughts for today.
>
> -Karen.
and your shallow thoughts are much deeper than most people's deep thoughts, which is one reason you find satisfaction so challenging to find... it is a very lonely words for someone who thinks and feels deeply... few people dare share it, even if they do it... and if they don't share it, I come to wonder if they even do it...
stay true to yourself K... there are depths in your heart that you've yet to explore... every year I find more depth inside myself and I used to think I reached the bottom line... I don't expect there to be a bottom line any more... there's always more because I won't quit, I won't shut down, I will remain open to explore deeper feelings and more intense experiences...
maybe no one will ever share it all... I'd like to believe someone will someday and so I choose to believe that... but part of sharing it all is realizing there is always more and the bond shared must be flexible and open to exploring all the depths, including new ones as they are discovered... that takes an amazing level of trust and faith in self and the other... and is very rare...
maybe this makes sense to you... I started out trying to reassure you and slide over to expressing something about myself... hope it helps...
newsbee
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