brave heart
>I had just gotten off the phone, and my heart was bubbling over with
>happiness. Everything, it seemed, was all right. K- was planning
>to take me out to dinner on Saturday, and I'll get to see him Thursday,
>too! He seemed more interested. Maybe he was just having a bad week.
>Maybe I just have an overactive imagination. Maybe he read the
>newsgroup. Well, whatever it was, I feel much better now.
>
>K- is becoming more of a boyfriend again, and R, bless his
>heart, is more of a friend. Everything is back in it's place, and I'm
>starting to feel better, too. So as of today, things seem to be all
>right.
>
> -K.
>
>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>J wants to see me. J -actually- wants to see me. I heard his
>voice in the backfound on the phone with my own ears. *This is a major
>breakthrough*. Forget the fighting, the bitter anger. I feel so good
>about this. After and despite everything that happened, I NEVER wanted
>to lose Jai as a friend. I guess we needed that time to heal alone
>before we could be friends again. I know, it was only a few words, but
>those words meant so much. And it all just sort of fell into place all
>at once. K-, R, J, myself, all taking out proper roles in the
>circle. I didn't do anything to provoke it at all. I guess you just
>have to wait some things out.
>
> -K.
>
>a.t. - I'm starting to regain my faith in the stars and the angels and
>fate again.
>
>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>Things are getting so much better. K- is beautifully sleeping
>peacefully in the other room. And he loves me. HE LOVES ME!!!!! When
>he touches me, it's like a billion little butterflies fluttering against
>my skin. The feeling is so exhillerating. His breath against my
>neck... the way his hands slide along the curves in my body... *sigh*
>
> -K.
>
>--
>"As a matter of fact, I swallowed one of these about two hours ago.
>And the explanation is that it is, in fact... my hand."
Hi K... thank you for the good news, I slip into la-la land (sleep) tonight (or is it morning... well, it's time for sleep for me, whatever time it is for the world) with a big smile... the way you openly share yourself is very precious and I am happy to know you are in this world still believing in trust - and isn't that what it's really all about?... it is to me :)
when we're not afraid to trust, we can love unconditionall and want those we care for to be happy... most people are afraid to trust to some degree, but so many are too afraid to overcome the fear and dare try trusting... you, at least the you I read, stand toe to toe with the fear and keep the faith - and that is truly beautiful...
this world needs more brave hearts like yours... so if my words give you just a little more reason to believe in yourself - no matter what others may do - then this world's a better place for the trust and love you bring to it...
I probably should have fallen asleep before waxing philosophically (maybe I did - lam)... for the bored, I'm done :)
take good care of you K, you're precious and few in this world... and you and your friends - for whatever it's worth to ya, you're making one more person (me) very happy by appreciating and respecting each other... ok, now I'm done...
nite nite, newsbee
"Short stories... that's what we live
Short Stories... just take what they will give,
Short stories... that's all it's ever been
Don't you worry 'bout the ending... before we begin"
~ Harry Chapin ~
... a friend is a stranger waiting to be met ... a friend is a stranger wanting to be met ... a friend is a stranger willing to be met ...
