From Jens Bjørneboe, The Silence (Chester Springs, PA: Dufour Editions; Norwich, Norvik Press, 2000). Translation of Stillheten (Oslo: Gyldendal Norsk Forlag, 1973). ©1973 by Gyldendal Norsk Forlag A/S.. Used by permission. English translation ©2000 by Esther Greenleaf Mürer.
ON THE ART OF MAKING THE EARTH UNINHABITABLE
It sometimes happens, when I'm walking through this great city, that I once again long for Europe. I can long for the altar at Isenheim or the Palazzo Vecchio, for Chartres and the Tower of London. I long for everything which is my own interior, which formed all the pictures I had inside me when I was youngand which I thought was the world. And for the landscapes, for the west coast of Jutland, for the Cinque Terre coast north of Portovenere. For the Arctic coast and Mont-Saint-Michel and the rocks on the Atlantic coast of Brittany. And it's a strange pain to break out of all this which was once truth for me, and which gradually became a cage of prejudices and compulsions. Were I to put it in the classical manner, in the style of the great tradition, then I'd have to say: A European isn't something you are, it's something you become. And you become one only when you settle your account with Europe, which is simultaneously an account with yourselfthat is, the reckoning with the prejudices and with the terrible burden of guilt which clings to this continent, and which we ourselves participate in right up until we see that this burden of guilt is our own, and that it lies not so much in our actions as in our whole way of thinking, and in our enormous ability to choose wrong. I almost said: To choose Evil.
I was talking with Ali about Europe, and Achmed, as he does so often, was standing beside us and smiling.
"Pardon," said Achmed, "but tell me how things really are in your own country. What's happening up there?"
"Everything's just fine, thanks," I said; "the population loses its teeth and the vegetables wither. In the lakes the trout drift around with their bellies in the air, and along the river banks the salmon float ashore with open mouths. In short: Trade and industry are flourishing. We've always lived on war profits, and thanks to continual wars in the Middle East we're living high on youa few years ago the shipping industry achieved a profitability which far surpassed the bull markets during the First World War."
"So it's really going splendidly!" replied Achmed seriously.
I went on: "There's money, sunshine and progress on all fronts. Taxes are rising, but only for the poor. Overuse Inc., the Exploitation Co., Fjord-Pollution Ltd. and the Mercury & Prussic Acid Corp. between them control almost the whole country in close collaboration with Wiretapping Inc. and such enterprises as Eurosulfur and Euronapalm. In the shipping industry we have in particular Global Graverobbing Inc. Agriculture has been taken over by Bankrupt Estates Ltd., the fisheries are controlled by the Church's Emergency Fund. The Garbage & Refuse Corp. looks after the cultural life. As you see, Achmed, we've come pretty far for such a small country. Confess that you admire us?"
Achmed didn't smile, but because Allah has made him a waiter, he filled our wine glasses. "Yes," replied Ali, "we really admire you. We've even copied your idiotic European clothes. You've managed to make the earth uninhabitable to a degree one wouldn't have thought possible. By dint of your precocious weapons technology you've succeeded in destroying the social structures and economic foundations in Africa as well as Asia and America. You've squeezed gold and wealth out of the colonies, and you're still doing it. You've transformed paradise into hell and for that we're actually insane enough to go on admiring you. The madness goes so far that today a great many politicians in the former colonial possessions want to imitate the European form of societyin other words, to copy the economic system which has made the earth uninhabitable. We admire the bandits who've seized other continents'ourriches for themselves, and who've used these riches to destroy the world. All of itwars, genocide, exploitation and now finally the pollution of air, earth and seait all has the same cause. And this we admire. But you can be sure that some of us understand thisand that we won't end up building a copy of Europe after the wars of liberation are over."
"Listen," I said, "how are you going to create a new society with all the age-old compulsions you lug around? I need only mention the way women are viewed in the Arab countries. We can take one of the psychiatric examples from the wara case which is internationally famous, in fact. It concerns patient X, an active saboteur, guerrilla and freedom fighter. While he's in the resistance he finds out that the European military police have abused, tortured and raped his wife. A while later he breaks down, he becomes wildly depressed and, above all, impotent. His wife writes to him that she is dishonored, that he mustn't think of her anymore, just forget her. Now to everybody around him the man is the main person, they're only concerned with him and his fate. The wife is simply regarded as a spoiled and rotten piece of fruit which can be thrown out. On the other hand, everybody finds it quite natural that the man, as a free guerrilla soldier, should go after other women the trouble is just that now he can't make it. He's totally impotent. He becomes the object of everybody's sympathy and concernand no one would have regarded him as dishonored if he'd been able to make love to the women he went after. The wifewho was rapedshe is lost and dishonored. And she herself shares everybody's view of the matter: she regards herself as ruined for life, a disgrace to her husband and her family. Now the husband, the patient, says to the psychiatrist almost these very words: If they'd just maltreated and tortured her, that wouldn't have done anything to me. But who can forget something like this? See? It wouldn't have done anything to me! And everybody else has the same attitude: it's the husband they're sorry for. The most macabre thing is that even the doctor obviously takes the same view: it's the husband who is dishonored by the rape. Nobody gives a damn what happens to the wife. Do you think, Ali, that this shows a view of humankind and society which is better than the European one?"
"What you're saying," he replied, "just shows that you whites are completely incapable of understanding anything about the Africans. The case is entirely different from what you see. Back of it all lie thousands of years of fine, invisible threads and unspoken thoughts. For this man the whole world has collapsed, and both of themboth he and his wifehave been marked by it for life, and for both of them what's happened is wholly irreparable. It affects not only themselves, but both of their families and also the children they already had together. No African would have difficulty understanding this, but you whites just project yourselves into what you're investigatingand you don't grasp anything of what lives inside the Africans. You think that if the natives here just learn to speak a European language and wear European clothes, then they're like youonly dumber. And with this attitude the Europeans have raped, tortured, and murdered for centuries in this part of the world. These are the reasons why Africa today is one big incurable, bleeding wound. With gun butts, bayonets and soldiers' boots you've trampled and manhandled human bodies all over the continentbut you don't know that you've trampled and battered human souls even more. What you've done here will never dawn on you.
"You're like that in everything that has to do with politics. I don't know of anything so comical and so helpless as the sight of Europeans sitting and studying Marx; he gets memorized, dogmatized, interpreted and expounded. The Russians are probably the worst. Of course they're also great chess players, eminent logiciansbut their way of thinking is just as rectangular as the chessboard and its squares.
"And this European or white logic functions splendidly in all mechanical relations, in everything which has to do with mechanics and technology, with machine-building and physicsbut in respect to human beings it's a total failure. And politics is an art or a science which has to do with human souls, with human fates. And here the logic of the chessboard doesn't help any more. You see the results in history. And perhaps you see it most plainly of all in our own century, because it bears the fruits of the past.
"Look at the map of Africa: it isn't divided up exactly like a chessboard, but according to the same principleAfrica's boundaries were drawn up at desks with a ruler after conferences between military chiefs of staff. Not the slightest attention was paid to tribal boundaries, to peoples or to nations, but only to degrees of latitude and square kilometers. It will take centuries for us to recover from the damage done by this slide-rule logic. No tribal chief in the interior of Africa would have been capable of thinking in such a foolish way as the mathema- tical geniuses on the general staffs of Europe."
"So you think that in the year 2000 the Afro-Asiatic and Latin American Cultural Research Commission will declare Europe and North America to be mentally underdeveloped regions and send us foreign aid?"
"I think that man was not created for the Sabbath, the Sabbath was created for man."
"And what does that mean?"
"That man was not created for socialism, but socialism for man. It's that simple. That means that our task is not to produce the new Soviet-African man, but an African socialisma socialism which can be used by Africans."
"At least you admit that Europe has produced socialism?"
"Are you crazy?" Ali retorted. "We had socialistic and communistic tribal societies in Africa long before anyone else thought of it. Our old tribal democracy was one of the most painful obstacles to the colonial powersa fact which they usually expressed by claiming that the chiefs didn't have enough authority. If we were dissatisfied with a chief, he was simply deposed, something the Europeans could never conceive of because they were brought up on the idea of a centralized, absolute state powerwhich the Europeans still believe in. Of course the Europeans have produced a socialist theory for the socialization of industry, but they haven't made it a reality. In the socialist states of Europe they've just produced a caricature and a bugaboo of socialism, a ghost which for fifty bears has stood in the way of a true socialism. That's due to the peculiarity in European thinkingthe need to rebuild society into a chessboard, and when the whole thing goes wrong, they begin making up fables about the future 'socialist soviet man', a kind of abstract dream figure who will fit into the chessboard, but who has never existed and who never will exist. When manthat is: when reality doesn't fit the plan, then you think that it's reality something is wrong withyou can't imagine that it's the plan which doesn't fit the reality.
"Just take the flock of children which stands outside here in the evening, shrieking and begging. In a European country they'd have the police round up the children and commit them to a children's home, to get the youngsters off the streets. They would have removed the visible symptom that something in this country isn't as it should bebut they wouldn't have touched the disease itself which causes the symptoms. And they would have driven around the streets with garbage trucks to gather up the poor who lie sleeping on the street like heaps of rags, so that the streets would be clean and pretty to look atbut they wouldn't have abolished the reason for the misery. You don't solve any problems by shutting the beggars up in state poor- housesespecially not when the poor themselves prefer sleeping on the street to being committed."
"Europeans would think that the commitment was for their own good."
"Europe has never understood anything but violence," he replied.
I discover that I'm standing still in the middle of the sidewalk, right in front of all the busy people with their justified existences who are on the way from something to something. I'm standing in front of the stone balustrade on the great promenade which in curve after curve leads down to the center, to the actual city. There's nobody else here who goes the whole way on foot. Even the beggars will sit at the bus stops and beg to be taken along gratis, and the Moslems have their duties to Allah; they often buy tickets for the poor. So I walk this long, stone-paved road alone, past palms and cedars and stone pines, utterly and entirely alone, just as I've always done. How did I get this way?
Was it the meeting with the world, which I may have perceived with bloodier nerves than most people? Is it sickness, or is it health?
I have decided that it is health.
It is I who am well, the others are sick.
Why, twenty years ago, did I begin to write this protocol about bestialitetens historie, about die Geschichte de la cruauté, about l'histoire der Grausamkeit, the history ofbestialité, la storia of cruelty? It will never be written, because it has no beginning and no end. How on earth can one imagine a continua- tion of world history without cruelty, how could one envision the rise of a society without cru- elty as its innermost, sustaining principleas society's basic idea?
It's here that the sickness lies. We just can't imagine a world without bestiality as the rulers' final argument! We can't imagine a society which doesn't build on brute force.
I've talked quite a bit with God about this, and even if he's often evasive, it's still possible to get him into a corner if one is just ruthless enough.
Once I met him, strangely enough, by the Cestius pyramid in Rome, and he was very low, almost heartbroken. So I took him into the Protestant churchyard and sat him on a bench under the rustle of the mighty treetops. It's odd to be in this space with all those Protestant, blond Nordic names, in the middle of a great Catholic cityand it was especially strange to be sitting there with God. Here lie many of the Great Dead, and many who aren't so great, but who are nonetheless dead.
"What do you think about Protestants and Catholics, God?"
He looked up, with eyes of darkest brown under his ancient forehead and white eyebrows. He was dressed simply, almost shabbily, and you could have taken him for an old street vendor, but he didn't have any pushcart. I was the only one who recognized him.
"I don't think anything about them," he replied; "it's they who think something about me."
I observed him sharply to see if he was smiling, but there was no sign of it. He sat motionless looking straight ahead, in between the trees and the graves. Then he said:
"But I know what you think about them, and that's enough."
The treetops sighed with a wind from the sea, all the way from Ostia. Suddenly it smelled of ocean and clams and mussels. All the glory of a newly-created world lay fresh and unspoiled in this breath of wind. God sniffed the sea air.
"Shall we go and have some lunch?" I asked. "I know a little trattoria nearby which always has fresh seafood at this time."
"I don't have any money," said God.
I told him that I had money for us both, and we got to our feet (neither of us is especially nimble-footed anymore), tottered across a couple of small streets, and found ourselves a place inside the cool shady room among the white, newly-ironed tablecloths. It was just before the stream of native luncheon guests usually arrived, and all the places were set with bread and plates. I ordered frutta di mare to begin with, and a light, dry wine from the mountains.
"Why are you so nice to me?" asked God.
"Strictly speaking, it's you who have created both shrimp and scampi and crayfish, and let's not forget the tiny squid, fried to a crispI especially want to mention them. Furthermore, you've also created the white wine and the casks it's tapped from . . . . so it's really yours, all if it."
"There aren't many who think like that anymore," answered God. He nodded in the same way as Columbusslowly and thoughtfully, with the same expression in his eyes as the great admiral has. Both of them do that when they're seeing pictures inside themselves, pictures which only they know about. After the hors d' uvres we ordered more wine, fish fillets, and a salad of white beans.
"Oh, God!" I sighed.
"Yes?" he said.
"It's just that it tastes so damned good," I replied. "It doesn't often happen anymore that food tastes good to me. My appetite disappears after a mouthful or two; the food is no longer what it was. Weeks can go by in which I can hardly get anything down but bread and cheese. But today the food was tasty. That's why I took your name in vainout of contentment."
"It concerns me that you're losing your appetite. Do you have pain in your belly?"
"Yes," I replied, "I always have pain in my belly. Every day."
"What do the doctors say about it?"
"Nothing much. Just that I have a chronic intestinal catarrhand so do a lot of people. It's something one is born with if one doesn't feel at home on this earth. The doctors say that I must have had it since I was a small child, and it's true. But when I was in my prime I could eat all I wanted anyway."
"It's not because you've abused my gifts?"
He nodded gravely at the fish, lemons, oil, and wine.
"Only partly."
He sat for a while in thought. Then he said:
"Can't you have done with The History of Bestiality? That's what's ruining your appetite and your digestion. If you're going to sit thinking of newly-scalded children every time you eat a crayfish tail, no good can come if it. Have done with the misery!"
"I'll never stop!" I said. "You won't get off so easily!"
Now he was no longer just an ordinary doddering gaffer who looked like a street vendor. He was wide awakea strong, robust, and athletic old man. He was on the defensive.
"Stop what you're working on," he replied; "then you'll get back both your appetite and your good digestion. The earth shall be yours! I'll make you rich and get you a job with a broadcasting company or a rich publisher. I'll give you health, wealth, and a salaried position with UNESCO. It's good for a man of letters to be a bit critical, but there must be limits to everything. Somewhere you must fall on your knees and worship! It doesn't matter whom you kneel to, whom you worshipyou can face east or west, north or south. But fall on your knees and worshipand this world shall be yours!"
"You aren't God," I said. "You have a tail."
"Only one is almighty. I lay the world at your feet."
"I shit on the world. Get thee behind me, Satan."
Then I was sitting alone again, eating a dessert of nuts and figs.
Since then I've met him again, though he avoids me. This decisive meeting in Rome took place several years ago, and my digestion hasn't improved since then. I can eat properly only when I'm perfectly relaxed and totally alone, and have lots of wine to wash the food down with. It looks as if all earthly joys go their way.
Nowas we write in the year 519 after ColumbusI've met God again here in the desert, and he spoke to me from a fig tree and said:
"Worship, and you yourself shall be worshiped!"
It's strange how old this thought is: You must own the world, you must be worshiped. But first you yourself must kneel and worship one of this world's princes. Even God or the Great Prince can't imagine your having other interests than gold and adoration, wealth and fame. I've told God that he'll have to come up with other temptations than thesebut the only alternative is that he says he can make my stomach well again, if I'll kneel down and worship. Of course that means a lot, but not enough. And when it comes to gold and glory, I must admit that I understand the temptation; but I don't want more than enough to pay my bills and keep food and drink in the house.
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