my "Keep In Touch" pages
another update... am I getting boring?... sometimes I feel boring, but then, life is monotonous these days... and here's no good news where it counts most, here in the here and now with family and friends... I mean, I have no family or friends here in the here and now... I mean off line... the family crisis remains a big untenable mess with nothing new to share... the light at the end of the tunnel is there at the end of the tunnel... I'm slowly crossing the middle of the tunnel, and so it goes... and life, well...
life is a lonely place these days as I focus on working my way out of the material world hole I've created for myself... no time for a social life and being in a city where I have no prior contacts, no friends to squeeze in a few moments quality sharing time with... and then the the big black hole in my heart left by the absense of family is no fun so...
if you choose to reach out to meet and get to know me, you're actually meeting me at the lowest point I've experienced in this life so far (would be nice if this is as low as it goes for this lifetime... and if you want to know more details than are on my "Keep In Touch" pages you can ask and I'll share what I can as I digest and resolve the current experience)
but in my spare time I am still a professional silver lining finder and I just flat out refuse to stay or be kept down for long (a few hours of self-pity depression kinda stuff and I'm bored out of my mind... bored?.. who me?... I guess I'm lucky and have some sort of anti-give-up gene or something)...
so seriously... how do I encourage anybody (how about you?) reading this who wants to go to a movie or anywhere with me (and is close enough to Buffalo, NY... or is wealthy enough to fly over at their leisure :} to actually reach out and say hi and start the getting to know you (song cue) process and actually get together to do something fun and/or rewarding or both?...
today? J
come on... there's no sense sitting there reading all the time... and while I love to write, I am alive to share and sharing takes at least two... somebody out there must be bored or lonely or just open to meeting a new friend... I love films (I know I wanna see You've Got Mail (Meg and Tom are two of my favorites... among lots of others) and there are probably lots of other good films out there and there are a zillion videos I want to catch up on that I miss and some I want to see again and... wanna share a movie? J
or how about music?... I love music... anybody know where to hear good music in this Buffalo area?... preferably someplace that doesn't ask me to dress up or spend money... and parks and sports and libraries and museums and playing games (cards, pool, trivia, and most anything) and doing just about anything with friends (it's not what we do, it's with whom we do it)... heck, I even like to shop (though it's more fun with money to spend ;} ... you can choose the activity...
no joke, I'm looking for offline friends... email me if you want my phone number, especially if you're near enough to share some activity offline... I like doing things by myself, but doing stuff is more often fun with others... wanna share a meal somewhere?...
well... this is supposed to be my keep in touch pages, so what else is new?... nothing, that's why I'm looking for something new :} ... work has slowed down some, which is good for health and not good for it delays the rebuilding process... I'm exploring the map again to see if relocating is my best move for this year (I mean, I've got no reason to hang in Buffalo alone... anybody anywhere who loves where you live - tell me about it)... if I do choose another place to start over, I doubt I'll make any move for a few months... and I love you all, but you know me - no politicking between the polls ;}
wait, here's something new... mailing lists for kids and teens have joined the other mailing lists for people who enjoy email writing and receiving emails... I'd join if I was a kid... hey wait, I am a kid LAM... ok, but the news lists are for littler kids and teenagers... if you know any kids or teens who might enjoy meeting others their age through email, let me know or check out the new Mailing Lists Page and let them know... more lists will be added as this year moves along and I find more time...
so there was something new after all... the other mailing list is waking up too... and there are some new pages on the site... and here I thought I was just gonna be boring... yeah, I know... eye of the beholder and all...
ultimately I'm doing my best to leave negativity behind and bring all the positivity I can attract along with me as I re-construct my life... I hope your February starts off as the best month of your life and just keeps getting better the rest of the year... and I look forward to hearing from you... online, offline, may we find smiles J
honest love, ric
PS... I guess here's where you start wondering if you've already read this page... some of this PS is from previous KIT pages... but a new line or few might be slipped in just about anywhere just to drive the perfectionists crazy (it takes one to know one, huh? ;)
I still love you for reading, for caring, and for being out there and thank you for letting me know you've been here... it means a lot to me... I hope you find the story of my life worth reading and maybe worth returning to check up on now and then... one of these days it'll actually be written and then your visits here might start actually making a little more sense, huh? (editors apply within)... if nothing else, maybe my survival might inspire you to try something new and appreciate what you've got a little more... just don't give up... it's not allowed in cartoons...
seriously, it's not allowed in my life either... if life's getting too heavy or too challenging or too painful or too anything and you're thinking of giving up, write me before you do... maybe we can figure out how to keep it going another day... I've got to, being part toon... and mostly crazy...
the simple truth is that the love I offer you in words here is unconditional and serious... the survival is serious... the challenges are serious and they are not gonna win... gotta believe that...
so go on, you're not melting, the world isn't as cruel as the wicked witch said it was, I'll be right here waiting for your good news... I'll even tell the world right here if you want me to... O'll make a good news page just for us (or it can be our little secret... just let me know there's a smile and some worth for you somewhere in here or out there, ok?)...
so the never ending closing continues... it's the method to the madness... the lemonade, even... though it's being edited to keep it from growing into a monster that the server won't allow uploaded... hey, maybe I'll start a PS page section for further babblings... anyway, no matter what happens to me, some things remain the same... like the laughter and peace deep inside... and my desire to care and share it...
I don't know if I have a bi-polar personality,
but I certainly have a bi-polar life LOL LAM... LAA? :)
anybody out there?...
well, like I say again and again cuz I believe it, I am still keeping hope alive (as long as the web pages linked below to my written gardens shows new growth, I'm on the right path and still progressing more than regressing)... sometimes barely breathing (song cue) due to major obstacles and a famine of inspiration and a constant drain on energy, but I'll still not give into fear (another song cue - a promise is a promise) or negativity, so the gardener is still alive and kicking... see, the toe just moved...
for those who've cared, the ASL Website is not gone... and you can still reach me about the site at the Website mailing list administrator's address: asl-owner@egroups.com... those who actually cared (thank you all) to actually work on the ASL pages are great people... so for those of you who've cared and inquired about the ASL sites, the addresses on the site are still valid and I'll do my best to respond...
like I was saying, writing has always been my primary release and solitary comfort... when I am not corresponding much, my friends know to ask for whatever I'm writing in my gardens so they can at read whatever I am finding time and energy to let out... and now anybody who really cares can check the gardens web pages and that has me real excited... feedback helps more than I can say, so if ya wanna help (for free) and have a little time and like playing editor and really care about words and maybe want to care about me or share ideals I've expressed (or just like being an audience :) ... applaud or booo or carefully critique as you wish...
by the way, the editorial committee is still empty at the moment as the editor in chief ran amuck and running amuck and me was just too much for her... I understand, amuck is a very big responsibility to run... and even though I am profoundly depressed over the loss, I'm still incorrigible...
as long as the gardens keep growing, I'm doing alright... and except for missing my family and friends and wanting to share more daily life, everything is beautiful (in it's own way)... I know I am doing the right thing for me right now... I hope you understand... and please remember...
you get what you get when you go for it...
and what you get is what you put into it...
positivity inspires and creates positivity
negavitity inspires and creates negativity
it is your choice
or something like that...
you are loved and you are missed
and for a moment, you are kissed
you may have smiled, you may have shrugged
but for a moment, you are hugged
I send you good wishes, happy thoughts, and fun energy to share in your life while I'm gone and hope you remember this...
I think of you and I am caring
even when we are not sharing
once we give part of our heart
we're never really far apart...
knowing you care about me makes every step I take easier
I hope that knowing I care about you makes your journey better too...
I will do my best to write more personally just as soon as I have more time... I'm here checking in cuz I care about you and I know you're reading cuz you care about me... and while I am away, I'm still sending smiles everyday (from me to you, even ;)
and please take care of the smiles, they are full of vitamins and and sunshine and rainbows and lollipops and all sorts of good stuff... and every hug is full of honest love, lots and lots of honest love :)
and you can try (please please {ain't too proud to beg}... mail makes life more fun... and it's very inspiring to know you're out there reading and caring :) to send email to me (if you sent email to my "toon-town" address, please try the other address here, it seems the toon-town postal workers appeared to be on strike for a while... something about arbitrary erasures... and then Disney Inc. sued and closed the toon-town post office because of some indescretions that have been hush-hushed just because they can... so the toon-town address is no longer valid)...
you're much better off sending email to anon's sister, Sysquash, who checks mail almost daily, at Sysquash, please give this to Anon, thank you =) (please and thank you and big smiles usually help get Sys's attention and she'll slip it under the pillow for a big wake up surprise =) ...
in case of emergency cut off from the web, try Anon... use this address if a month goes by without a response to the other address below... some of you know I haven't checked it in many weeks, months even... at least...
there's also an address or few here and there in the written gardens if you stroll through there... and now, without further ado, I am undone... so... to the words, rhymes, and whatever I may find in the backs or the fronts or the sides of my minds...
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