my "Keep In Touch" pages
Happy New Year for everyone celebrating the changing of the year tonight and for everyone living and celebrating by other calendars instead of or in addition to the standard calendar like me (I'm an in addition to, personally, cuz I believe in celebrating every day so I seek all the reasons for celebrations there are... some days we just need to be creative and make something up... anyway...), Happy New Year whenever your year changes...
and so... the universe gave me a Christmas present... I found work on Christmas Eve (didn't mention it last week cuz I wasn't sure until the day after)... and so I might actually survive without pretending too much (still trying to laugh in the face of whatever - close to the edge was a while back, I've been falling for a while now and luckily, a bottomless pit has no bottom (ummmm, there's stating the obvious, huh?) and so as long as I don't give into fear (another song cue for old hippies) I'll find some way back to a reasonably more enjoyable life... heck, if I can find peace and enjoyment these days, I do believe in miracles... life is one big one I experience every day...
ok... so in a couple of weeks I will actually start catching up on past due bills... the landlord might let me stay yet (shhhh, maybe he doesn't realize I haven't paid for a while... I shouldn't be laughing, huh?... well... the phone company still has me connected... my service has been downgraded to tin cans and string, but at least I can still update this page... come on, laugh with me, it's all I can offer as a holiday present... my indomidible spirit and insanity... must be worth something)...
next time I visit here I might rearrange this never ending letter into separate pages to make an index and shorter download and more organized access and maybe I'll add to the story parts and fill in some blank pages that belong in there or here or somewhere and make some more or less sense of this life I'm trying to share here in words... to keep in touch, ya know?... that's what this page is about, after all... keeping in touch with anyone who cares about me and wants to know how I am... well...
I'm not telling... it's far too scary and depressing and insane in reality these days so I'm using every ounce of my creative abilities to paint this wondrously obscure illusion that you are reading now... hmmmm, well, I suppose the truth is in here somewhere... my life's a X-File, so don't expect it to make sense all the time and of course, expect it to leave you wondering about exactly what really happened in the end...
I love you for reading, for caring, and for being out there... I hope you find the story of my life worth reading and maybe worth returning to check up on now and then... one of these days it'll actually be written and then you're visits here might make a little more sense... if nothing else, maybe my survival might inspire you to try something new and appreciate what you've got a little more... just don't give up... it's not allowed in cartoons... seriously, if life's getting too heavy or too challenging or too painful or too anything and you're thinking of giving up, write me before you do... maybe we can figure out how to keep it going another day... I've got to, being part toon... and mostly crazy...
really... the love I offer you in words here is unconditional and serious... the survival is serious... the challenges are not gonna win... gotta believe that... so make today different - do something good for yourself - and smile at someone who might not expect a smile... a whole lot of people even... help someone who needs a hand... give the gift of yourself... or next time I'll do an even longer impression of Stuart Smalley... or I might even get evangelical on you... you've been warned... I expect to hear you did something good for yourself now... go ahead, these words will be here when you get back... let me know how it goes...
honest love, ric
PS... there's nothing new this time cuz you're supposed to be out there doing something good for yourself... so go ahead or I'll send the toon town police out to give you a summons for excessive unhappiness, procrastination, apathy, or all of the above... so go on, you're not melting, the world isn't as cruel as the wicked witch said it was, I'll be right here waiting for your good news... I'll even tell the world right here if you want me to (or it can be our little secret... just let me know there's a smile somewhere in here or out there, ok?)...
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