my "Keep In Touch" pages
the roller coaster ride just keeps on... oooops
wanna share?
(that's what I'm looking for)
wanna friend?
(here is my open door)
wanna party?
(like it never ends)
then live... like it never ends
do you remember how to pretend
how to have fun like it never ends
be a child, be anything you want to be
be a friend like it never ends
wanna share?
(what are you waiting for?)
wanna friend?
(here is my open door)
wanna love? (like it never ends)
then love... like it never ends
getting back to that oooops...
ah... staying optimistic and enthusiastic about life is not always easy as it dumps the smelly crap of selfishness and greed all over your parade... in other words, I found a job, raised my hopes about connecting with some people (even let a few inspire some new writing), and was laid off on the eleventh day cuz they hired too many people and the newest hires had to go... alas... grumble... sigh...
so it's pick myself up and dust myself off and start all over again time... closer to edge edge than last month, eeek... but still I'm calling on you to come on out and play games and party with someone else (I'm available), not just by yourself... do you know what I mean? (I sure hope so)...
come on my cloud
let me come on yours
let there be no limits
no walls and no doors
and if you are lonely
I've known lonely too
we can keep each other company
as we figure out what to do
(wanna have some fun?)
again I'm kinda rushing through this update... bummed would be the main reason this time... and this lifetime is still disorganized in this space I stay in to have shelter, but won't call home because that would make me way too vulnerable and there are way too many rules (it's like living with really strict parents... I mean the exaggerated kind of characature type thinking their god, ya know?... definitely can relate to oppressed teens these days... but I'm not pressing any teens, myself... the dirty old man laughs... at least I think that's what he's doing under the covers... meanwhile, back to the paragraph about the nice person here and world I live in) to just kick back and relax... it's only right that these monthly flybys reflect that I guess... though I'd rather present a more entertaining life for you to read about... some major changes are needed now more than ever... first I better get the brakes fixed (oh I can't help myself, I just wanna smile and laugh at the challenges sometimes)...
just sometimes though... I'm really more bummed than this writing mood appears... I'll let you know when those major changes finally happen (even if you don't know you know cuz you don't read here, I'll send ultra-conscious energy waves out to your unconscious and figure you'll know somehow ethereally or something... scientists can't explain it, so don't expect me to)...
remember the resume?... it's still there... still not getting noticed much, but then, neither is this web world... and on the other hand, this garden of words and assorted other stuff isn't exactly a professional working atmosphere so I probably should consider a different format and site for the resume stuff... I mean, I don't mind so much if anybody thinks I'm some sort of flake cuz I babble on long into the ridiculous, but it's probably not a very good reference for most of the professional world (unless you're hiring toons)... alas, the world doesn't know what they're missing... do you?...
well, I hope you'll help me keep the roof over my head (no joke, rent money will last until the end of the year and that's it... and that's eating pasta every day {except when Rasputin or Helena or somebody just as wonderful decides to treat me to a meal... here's a super big public thank you to you guys for keeping this body a bit more balanced and healthy)... I must somehow still want this challenge since I'm letting it happen again... that child inside me still hoping someone will come along and care enough to help me the way I helped so many along the way... yeah, there's always hope... right)... at least pass along the resume?
I made a decision about the computer club... I'm gone, resigned, out-of-order... they didn't take it too well... got pretty paranoid and pushed me right out the door... refused my offer to keep helping in the background and after asking me to turn all the email groups I created for the organization all over to someone else, they deleted me from the directors email group (they didn't delete any of the other dozen or so members who wished to stay in the background)... and remember that person power tripping?... guess who's running for President (like she wasn't already before)... my senses were accurate...
hey, I'm entitled to an occasional I told me so, ya know? J
and I drew further away from the online networking type things the last few weeks... except for some new ramblings in political groups... yeah, I said political groups... can religious groups be far behind? (there's always hope lol... ooops, did I just laugh?... musta been gas)... anyway, it's this recent election mess that caught my attention and perked up some social consciousness in me... amazing how manipulated we are every day and how little we're aware of...
anyway, I've all but ignored all the other online stuff... I'll get back to sending out resumes just as soon as I get over the depression (don't tell me you didn't notice?... it's all over my face... behind the smile... beneath the giggles... in my shorts... well, it's somewhere around here... I know, cuz I feel it breathing down my neck and it has really bad breath... must not brush it's teeth much)...
the good news is I have been inspired to write more and the gardens are expanding again... the journals are flowing along (not like last month where it took a whole month to get them uploaded) and that's always a good sign... so maybe the depression won't last long... once it gets here, I mean... the guestbook... is still there... it's not getting noticed (and if you're reading, you're not signing... chicken?... don't want me to know you're reading?... you're not reading?... oh, don't tell me that, I'll feel lonelier and more depressed and rejected and unwanted and useless and worthless and unworthy and unnecessary and probably get indigestion or 'roids, even... been here before, huh?)...
you can sign the guestbook if you want, ya know?
(I'm still not gonna smile, nope, not gonna do it... not until you sign)...
and of course you are welcome to read it (but unless people sign there's nothing to view and that can be quite embarrassing and thoroughly depressing) (ummmm, hint, hint, mm'k?)... this web world also has a SLAMBOOK!, ya know?... it's a questionnaire type of guest book... I spent hours and hours and days and a long time thinking up lots of questions just for you... you can answer or read the SlamBook! (but again, there's nothing to read until people are kind enough to write something (like hint hint, ya know?) J
wait, I didn't really smile (again?)... I'm actually not a very happy camper these days (still?) so I should not be smiling (boo-hoo)... it's just (yeah, like just a little pregnant) that happiness is such a hard habit to break for me (meanwhile, I'm still sitting here with that strange frazzled expression some might see as a smile and some might not see at all)...
so ok, I took job hunting seriously for a few days and found a job... then I lost it... so I gotta get back on that horse and get even more serious this time so I don't get into a rut of settling for poor choice jobs... if I can afford the wisdom... I guess I sensed that job wasn't secure since I didn't bother to change the wantlist... still the same...
any people or roommates out there who really want to and know how to share?... alas... same as last time, just won't repeat it again...
so once again I thank you for coming to the web pages and keeping in touch with me this way... it really helps... you remind me that I may not really be as alone as I feel sometimes... when you remind me (nudge)...
so (this is really getting repetative, isn't it?... rundundancy r us... and I deleted several paragraphs that said the same thing last month... that would be repetitive, yup... not to mention redundant... again... and if I'm not careful I'll probably start saying the same things over and over again... maybe even use the same words... wouldn't want to do that, now would I?... would I?)...
I've heard of wooden teeth, but a would eye?... it probably happened...
another month of not keeping track of films or TV or even music... haven't done much (poverty blues, la la lo)... doing a lot of nothing online and off (except when friends come around) and still not getting paid for it...
alas... I need to get back to hunting before I depress myself even more... I haven't reached maniacal laughter just yet, so there's still hope for me to recover completely... well, there's always hope for anything cuz anything possible, right?... but recover completely?... this toonish gent?...
gonna take quite a hello nurse for that...
I guess that's about all to say here... check out the other journal stuff (links to worklife, lifetimes, journal, heartbeats, and bios journals can be found in the last paragraph below) for more info about what's going on in and around me...
so here I am still, just taking my time
looking, hoping, writing a rhyme
wanting a friend who's ready to play
looking for a comfortable place to stay
the light at the end of the tunnel is nearer
can someone see me through the fog?
the outside world is becoming clearer
trying to get realer
and I see some sun and I see some rain
and maybe it's time to stop riding that train...
and as Linda Rondstadt sang, I still miss someone
please take good care of yourself... and please, keep in touch...
honest love, ric
PS... nothing new in the PS, so don't even bother if you've been here often... still, when you wake up you will find that you're not where you left yourself...
this KIT is destined to be updated very shortly... very shortly... very shortly...
(still a broken record, huh?)
if you want more details about me (you really care that much?... I ask cuz
precious and few are the ones who really care), then all I ask is that you
understand me (just me asking the impossible, huh?)... you are welcome and
encouraged to explore this web world and come to my window and dance by the
light of the silvery moon and see what I want and offer friends and check out
A Brief Introduction to Anonanonanon (Me) and more bios to get more personal
and then for more (if you have time and interest in my babbling and details),
read through previous KITs and worklife and lifetimes and then (if you are still
awake and really want more babbling) there is the almost daily journal and you
can listen to my heartbeats and oh what the heck, by then you must be either
crazy (or closer to the edge) or family, so just explore all the
new growth in
the rest of the written gardens and add yourself to my personal
address book
and meet others in the other email groups... and then, just ask what else you
want to know... and I'll do my best to fill in the details you ask for J
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