my "Keep In Touch" pages
hey... you... will you
come on to my cloud?
do you shine like the stars
or hide under a shroud?
do you feel what I feel?
(the hunger... the thirst)
do you hear what I hear?
(I'm blessed... I'm cursed)
can you put it into words?
(it's a look in the eyes)
can you understand the birds?
(or the heart when it flies)
why do you come here?... what do you see?
(do you ever admit you feel lonely?)
are you aware of... all we can be?
(if we dare to share in reality)
I would like to know... will you tell me?
(the look in your eyes is all I need to see)
or will you let go of... this opportunity?
(there is more to life than idle fantasy)
would you like to know... more than is here
(can we meet, on the street, anywhere?)
do you make your own choice?
(do you hear your own voice?)
do you dare... do you care... do you share
and are you aware?...
we are here, we are here, we are here
who?
breathe in... ... ... ... ... ... breathe out
(face fear, face doubt)
here is my hand
(at your command)
open for you
(belief makes true)
do you understand?
(what do you understand?)
can you come to me
(and set yourself free)
with nothing planned
(become one with the band)
can you experience
(create the experience)
share the experience
of wonderland?
let me know you are
whatever you are
let me know how you are
how ever you are
let me know why you are
why ever you are
let me know you are
if you are
let me know you are
whatever you are
(make it real, touch and feel)
let me know where you are
wherever you are
(make it clear, make it here)
let me know when you are
whenever you are
(make it now, show me how)
to reach you where you are
let me know you are
if you are
are you?
let me know
I love you...
(you are... even if you did not know)
...
(hope you do)
...
alas, life throws another curve... the budget was working out well here and today, in fact as I'm writing this, I am told I'll have to find another place to live as soon as possible... personal issues, family crisis, and so on... so I'll toss myself onto the winds again and see what comes of it... probably much worse on the budget director, hopefully much better on other levels... oh well, I might actually have to get back to work sooner than planned (like I have a plan?) J
it's really for the best all around as it's getting way too tense in this space to relax and enjoy life and there's no place for me to actually have a life here... the monetary savings and friendly landlord was the big plus... he doesn't really have time for anything now anyway, so back to square one for me... so I'm searching for a place to live again (anybody out there?
J )
I'm still spending a lot of time at this computer bouncing between updating and moving the web gardens to a new home and managing email groups... though spending less time in the newsgroups... I've started to reach out more by opening the window (talk about opening doors - your heart to mine, my heart to yours) and put a personals-type listing up on a couple of sites...
and I'm still catching up on movies and TV series and stuff on the boob tube cable so send video suggestions... and I miss music painfully, so I hope you help me out by sending music suggestions... and suddenly more than anything else right now I'm living space hunting again, so if you're in the Orlando area and want to share some space, I'll be good J
here I am still, just taking my time
resting, relaxing, writing a rhyme
giving the healing time it needs
nurturing silent solemn seeds
put out once again to find a safe place
the smile in my heart might not show on my face
when there's no one to share it, I ask myself why
nobody knows this look in my eye
this lonely look in my eye
feeling in bits and pieces these days
nobody comes and nobody stays
where is the one who understands me
to the depths of my essense...
still rising and falling in euphoric pain
and still reluctantly riding that train...
please take good care of yourself... and please, keep in touch...
honest love, ric
PS... ...yup, it's a link now... seems a PS... can develop a life all it's own in these written gardens... who knows what it'll become when I wake up...
if you want more details about me (you really care that much?... I ask cuz precious and few are the ones who really care), please explore this web world and come to my window and dance by the light of the silvery moon and see what I want and offer friends and read through previous KITs and worklife and the journal and the new growth in the rest of the written gardens and add yourself to my address book and other email groups... and then ask what you want to know... and I'll do my best to fill in the details you ask for...
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