...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
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A Journal of Sorts
"are these times contageous
I've never been this bored before
is this the prize I've waited for
now as the hours passing
there's nothing left here to insure
I long to find a messenger..."
~ Collective Soul ~
so I wandered over to talk to some people in newsgroupland and as usual started pondering the meaning of whatever and realized once again (or is that reminded myself once again) that I think we attract what we want to attract and go where we want to go to find what we want to find... I just think it's not conscious most of the time... and I think that's what each person needs to work on internally... identifying what it is one really wants, prioritizing, and then exploring ways to really get it... but before setting out on any path, a good question I feel should be asked is 'will the next step I take truly be healthy for me?'...
and so here I sit rambling on when I could be out somewhere... maybe I'm feeling too lonely to be out there... part of me is thinking about these web pages... I mean, I'm sprawled all over the web as I am, warts and all... I wonder if some people read my words about me and think 'well if he's willing to put this much on the web, who knows what horrors he's not telling?'... while I'm thinking 'hope I find someone as open and honest as me'...
and I find some beautiful people far far away who understand... always have... and I'm remembering many and wishing I could find them again... but more than anything, I'm wishing someone would understand and be right here...
perhaps you've noticed a lull...
