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A Journal of Sorts
"some love is just a lie of the mind
it's make believe until it's only a matter of time
and some might have learned to adjust
but then it never was a matter of trust...
some love is just a lie of the soul
a constant battle for the ultimate state of control
after you've heard lie upon lie
there can hardly be a question of why"
~ Billy Joel ~
well Ben cancelled on the Computer Society meeting because his daughter had other plans for him... he's between a rock and a hard place and I just hope it doesn't wear him down as he sacrifices professional and personal connections... seems I shouldn't really shouldn't count on him for much or a while... hope it works out for both of them in a mutually heathy way...
seems I'm in a circular motion mode anyway... getting a little lazy and vegging and watch out for that curve ahead cuz blahs are right around the corner... day to day life can be so depressing when nobody cares and is around to show it... loneliness sucks... and getting sucked into the void of emptiness is a danger when sitting around too long... sometimes being in touch with one's self sucks :}
updated the A.S.L. section of Newsbee's Universe... I'm getting fewer and fewer responses to my posts there, but it's good therapy for me to respond to others and let out my thoughts... same thing is happening on a mailing list, with the same people, so I suppose their cold shoulder tactic is in effect again... next step will probably be suggest I'm the one ignoring them, which of course proves I'm a bad person, if they are still as predictable... the fewer direct responses, the more detached and objective I can be... which leaves more time for me and the writings here... this is good J
I'm definitely finding fewer and fewer people I can count on these days... must mean I am starting to trust people again... and child will have to be reminded that most people do not trust themselves so they are dangerous to trust... I need to continuing focusing on finding someone I can trust offline...
