...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
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A Journal of Sorts
once upon a time
I lived in paradise
I gave it all away
without thinking twice
I thought I found the one
who'd never go away
thought I'd never be alone again
alone again...
like I am today
it's supposed to be my day, but I'm not in my space so I sit here doing my best to be as small as possible so the tension and hosility stay on the other side of the doorway... Jerry isn't taking the news (that we must move out as soon as possible) well... I spent the day sending out responses to sharerent and other roommate listings and got my hopes raised high...
I've so rarely celebrated my own birthday that it is strange to even have it acknowledged... so thank you to you guys who did... hope you understand my ambivalence about it... I've gotten used to it being a rather ignored day in this life so it is one of the lesser dates on my personal calendar and I celebrate other milestones (one of these days I might actually get my calendar back out of mothballs so I might connect the dot of this life again and get back to starting over... living on hold in limbo is fun for a little while, but gets kinda tiresome after a while... kinda like parentheses and my babblings perhaps)...
. . . o O ( anybody reading? ) O o . . .
and besides, I'm preoccupied with finding a place... I'd actually rather stay here a bit longer for a couple of reasons (saving the money being primary)... not one of my more articulate moments, huh?... ok, it's a kinda dazed grumble day for me... that in itself is an amusement for me (where is that squiggly Charlie Brown kind of smile when I want one... missing the fonts and the programs I used to use to create more expressive visual babble... and wondering if those I used to correspond with before 1995 miss it too... sheeesh, did I ever take a wrong turn... sigh and all that misty memory pondering stuff J )
