...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
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A Journal of Sorts
"when I rearrange the pieces of the puzzle of my past
I sigh at the heartaches, relive the laughs
and think about the moments that have left their mark
and the too few faces that shine a little light in the dark...
if you don't mind I'm gonna tell you a story..."
~ Harry Chapin ~
well, I've been offline a lot the past few days... more than five hundred messages just downloaded... it took three tries and more deletions to get it done... a lot of them are from the email groups... I have more than a thousand in one group alone waiting to be read... it inspires a wonderful feeling in me to see that something I did (create the group and invite some people) has inspired so much creative writing and email sharing (even if I don't have time to actually read all the words... I trust if there is a conflict they'll let me know if list management intervention is needed... I think the art of group building is selecting members who will rub each other the right way to inspire and provoke responses without personal negativity... kind like mind reading and predicting the future and other impossible dreams) J
as for me, I've been editing pages... more than 5000 messages (in and out) since February 1st still to waiting for review to cull stuff fo the gardens from... from which to cull stuff, huh?... language LAM... anyway, I've decided that from now on I'm gonna try my best not to fall behind J
I also spent part of the weekend exercising (wake up call for the body... ouch) and rearranging the room, trading a dresser for a desk and trying to fit everything in here... it's more cramped now, but much more functional... and the desk gives me a space for the new grown up computer I need desperately (I may have mentioned it... lam) for this laptop hard drive is too full...
and went to Sea World and dinner a couple of times and a bit of shopping and I've probably mentioned some of this stuff but some days I'm in more of a babbling mood than others so welcome to my written gardens and I hope you enjoy the time you spend here...
anyway, the webpages are still in progress and taking most of my time (with attempted peaceful vegetation with the boob tube close behind)... the website is gonna take a while longer to transfer over.... so many pages and so many links... please keep in mind that a lot of links might not work... I'm gonna need lots of broken link reports to get it right once I finally move everything over...
I still want to thank you for visiting my world of words (in this part of the gardens I allow myself to get wrapped up in my own details and may sometimes forget you're reading... excuse me if you think I'm too whiney or getting too personal here... it's possible some of life is not meant for public sharing and yet, this is what my life is about... sharing everything... as well and as respectfully and above all else as honestly without harm as I am able)...
I miss sharing words, especially with trusted friends... heck, I miss sharing life and the universe and everything with trusted friends... I know there is life in words, but much more life is offline and I need to develop more offline activities and social contacts again... and though I feel much more lonely when I walk away from the computer, nothing changes except my awareness of how I am feeling on many real levels even when I am sitting at the
computer...
so I'm gonna try to find some physical world sharing soon... I want some deeper good news to share with my net friends... and that is found
offline... so... I hope the last few days is a step in the right direction again... moving around much, exercise, rearranging space, and opening my eyes... even ran once very briefly... waking up... hope... yup, there is always hope...
and I hope you keep in touch... your caring means more than ever J
