...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
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A Journal of Sorts
"when did this thing start?
what are you thinking? are you serious?
how long have you had these thoughts? who are you, now?
do ya feel lonely? do you fantasize? do you have dreams?
are you real? are you real? are you real? are you real?
what are you talking about? do you really care?
who do you think you are? what turns you on? who cares? what's so funny?
how do you know you exist? well, can't answer that.....
are you real? are you real? are you real? are you real?"
~ Therapy ~
and suddenly, there's a flurry of activity in my email... just as I'm focusing more energy on myself I am called by messages from the servers I use for my mailing lists... they say they will cancel the lists unless I get people to join and send messages... so I moved my focus over to the lists... I looked in my address book and used whatever power of perception and mind reading (which is actually whatever skill I have in word-reading) to select groups I sense will be compatible for some of the lists... I'll spend the next week doing the same for all the lists I wish to keep active and the rest I'll let dissolve in the great cyberspace void where unused ideas go... the art of... hmmmm...
what would this thing I love to do be called?... bringing people together?... maybe a sort of sociology... but then it's not like I want to study people, just want to help them share cuz sharing is the best experience in the world for me and I figure others might enjoy it too J
the ultimate question may be what is real... for what good is any answer if it is not real... on the other hand, what is the difference if it is real or illusion if it harms nothing and brings one peace and happiness... so for me, the point is sharing... learning... feeling and thinking and getting to know self and others...
for me the question becomes, what good is a mind without knowledge...
so I am hoping to be a catalyst for sharing that allows me to share more as well... and to this end, I rekindle my mailing lists ideas... the project I put on the shelf more than a year ago because survival did not allow time to deal with the responsibility or the delicate diplomacies involved in reading and trying to understand people through words... in words, misunderstandings can so easily happen... and some do not seek resolution due to fear or prejudice or some other personal reason... and some actually seek debate or negativity and will provoke others, perhaps for attention, perhaps for other reasons...
so to create and manage mailing lists, which are basically groups of people limited to texted based sharing... it sometimes require much time communicating, especially those I've created for emotional release... almost like therapy...
well, in the sense that writing is self-therapy for me... hopefully others will share themselves in words and find positivity in sharing and resolutions where they have obstacles or conflicts...
and hopefully I'll have time to make this worthwhile project work even after I start working to pay for basic survival and stuff... anybody wanna help, seriously, please let me know J
MAILING LISTS
