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A Journal of Sorts
"like children rarely seen
and never heard
emotion bare your soul you'll never learn
but don't ask why
and you won't get lied to"
~ Cause & Effect ~
I've been writing a lot in the newsgroup and well, I sense my tolerance for the incessant provocations is wearing down... the blatant insults have finally given way to feigned innocent questions which read like accusatory interrogations... the really annoying thing is some strangers are encouraging the questioning and insisting I should answer the ocp attention seeking as if I somehow brought the tantrums to the group... it is amazing how shallow people are and how well repetitive public innuendo and works... it's ultimately virtual propaganda...
but then, it appears the most active of their audience is actually replacing real life for a text based soap opera as if it was real, so what can really be said for the perspectives found among strangers in a text world...
alas, I don't know the primary proponents of my responding and apparently either they don't know the history of the ocp negative attention seeking or they are eager for more conflict and drama in their text based world or they are innocents and really don't see the bait and switch games they've fallen victim to themselves... anyway, I just may bite as that may be the only way to be accepted in the group, prove I am not hiding anything, and ultimately probably how it doesn't matter what anybody does, the ocp delusions will continue...
but the thing that's bugging me is the victims of their game and some innocent people are being manipulated for the sake of the attention they seek... like sending public pity and ridicule and condolences to someone for simply being friendly and objective and supportive in a support group... I suppose they do that because it doesn't fit into their boxes of narrow minded ocp delusions and judgments of how people should act... but I can only guess at their motives...
so ok, maybe I'll give them the show they are asking for and walk into their trap... and perhaps they'll prove me wrong, but if nothing else it'll help me test just how healed I am internally as the superficial betrayal of former friends in words on the net is reflective of the deeper betrayal in real life that I am recovering from... and so, the great experiment I volunteered for so long ago continues...
if you missed it live in the NG, you can catch it in reruns...
