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A Journal of Sorts
Positively A.S.L.
(you've got a lot of nerve
to say you are my friend)
~ Bob Dylan ~
so what's going on... did I mention we went to see Ben Hur, The Musical at the local Broadway type theatre here with the roommates (free tickets J)... and we've been to dinner with them a few of times... seems we'll get along, which makes sharing the space much easier even though it's cramped and definitely not enough space for me to bring anything down into... still, life's definitely more fun and getting better every day...
online, some amazing obsessions (sounds like a TV infomercial... and actually, makes less sense) have greeted me in a newsgroup I used to visit... I've been a little concerned with what appeared at times to be cyber-stalking in 1999 when I was not posting to newsgroups and yet still hearing about insults and and lies and hostility posted about me by one or two people... I suspected they were using aliases to stir up suspicion about me and even write to me to try to draw me back into their verbal battles... leaving in December of 1998 wasn't enough it seems... if you have time and an interest in human behaviours, it is an interesting study of public small group obsessive compulsive paranoia...
anyway, after 5 days of ignoring insults, I posted that I could also be found in another group, hoping to step away from the obsessives... however the primary ocp poster followed to the other group to spread hate about one of my online friends... it seems like obssessive compulsive paranoia had actually reached stalking levels... benign, but still sick and intrusive in my online activities...
if you're interested and have the time, pick a link and see for yourself... here's my first post in over a year (go figure)... this thread is a a question for me I found when I started reading again (others were answering for me and insulting me)...
and this thread is my response...
and if you wish to see more of the ocp posts and how I tried to find peace with them (and have lots of time to read), here are (you can also use the Dejanews power search to narrow your search to any number of specific criteria... I've found the free service very useful in studying online posting patterns and interactions)
all a.s.l. posts Dec 1 to present mentioning my name (including mine)...
all a.s.l posts Dec 1 1999 to present
the amazing thing is the level of obsessive compulsive patanoid delusion that seems to have no purpose other than attempts at public discredidation and control of the group through intimidation... people who posted my name favorably in 1999 were insulted, ridiculed and virtually silenced by hostility... and a few people who write to me and call themselves my friends were publically supporting those slandering me because their words were manipulated in responses...
so anyway, that's where I'm going to be writing for a while... if you want to follow the journey, the links above will take you to the words in one newsgroup (not recommended for support at this time due to resident hostility and ocp control behaviours)... if you wish more, the following link will let you search for more... use power search... I usually posted under ric or newsbee, so start there and if you still want more, call and come on over J
and finally, you'll be able to find some of my writings to public forums in
Letters To Strangers
and specifically to this particular newsgroup in my
My ASL Gardens
