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and letting time and heartbeats pass... sadly, even my heartbeats may have stooped to babble... maybe it's still part of the healing process... many don't survive what I've been through, at least not alone... I don't think I've died...

so I listen to time passing and I watch the toob and slip myself a time bomb mickey by listening to Tom Chapin now and then, wondering where the people with energy are hiding... wondering why they don't come to my door... there was an old song with that line, a bit reversed though... anyway, remembering isn't always fun... but it's much more apt to be fun shared, so where are you?...

luckily I don't have Melissa Etheridge or Patty Smyth or some other more intense and visceral performers available at the moment... though I do have a Portishead CD though... oh I should be singing... but where... singing softly to myself while sorting through the clothes... still... Harry and Jackson and Billy and Elton and Bernie and John and Paul and Justin and John and... they're all still somewhere in my head... and maybe I'm not so lucky after all...

  sometimes I get so tired of living what if...

  but then...

what if



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