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Family Lies
I didn't mean to hurt you I was just trying to love but I'm so afraid to touch you afraid of god above afraid of my own feelings afraid of losing control afraid I might want you so much I'd sell my self - my soul so I pushed you away and let you think that I didn't care when you started to drink and I blamed you for that and I still do today but I didn't want to see that you wanted to stay I didn't mean to hurt you I'm innocent, I am I want so much to love you but I need to understand will you hurt me like the others how will I ever be sure I just wanted you to beg me to stay when I showed you to the door so I pushed you away and let you feel that I hated you but it wasn't real and I blamed you for that and I still do today cuz I'm too afraid to see the game I play don't sing me your love song you know I won't believe don't tell me I'm in denial or what I give I will receive I don't want to hear your story I just want you to hear mine and I'll never sing this song to you... you know that's the bottom line I didn't mean to hurt you I just want to love but I'm soo afraid to trust you you're what I've dreamed of and if I get too close it might get too real and I might have to admit pain is all I feel so I pushed you away and let you go when you stand on a seed it will not grow and I blamed you for that and I still do today cuz I didn't want to see the words I pray so I pushed you away... cuz I didn't want you to see I lived in tears today I didn't want you to see I lived in fears of yesterday don't sing me your truth song you know I won't believe don't tell me I'm a hypocrit or how it's only me I decieve I don't want to hear your glories I just want you feel my pain and I'll never listen to your song... and you're the one to blame so don't sing me your love song you know I won't believe don't tell me I'm in denial or what I give I will receive I don't want to hear your story I just want you to hear mine and I'll never sing this song to you... you know that's the bottom line Family Lies (That's The Bottom Line) Ric Candor ©2000 MAIN GATE FRONT DOOR WRITTEN GARDENS FAREWELL EMAIL
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