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he's out there waiting
for the next confrontation
cuz he gets off
on putting me down

so I'm hesitating
switching through the stations
with the headphones on
I won't make a sound

maybe he'll forget I'm in here
maybe I'll forge he's out there
maybe he won't come inside me tonight
maybe he won't hit me
maybe I'll just die of fear

daddy why
when will you let me go
daddy why
when I'm eighteen, I know
I'll be out of here
you won't find me
all I want right now
is to live till then
this is how

I pee in a bottle
so I don't have to open the door
cuz he's out there
waiting to take some more

he calls it his throttle
says he likes to ram it down
I'm supposed to swallow
and not make a sound

daddy why
can't you find someone else
daddy why
someone more like yourself
I don't want to be
scarred for all time
already so much
I live in fear
of your touch

when you want me to scream
fuck me harder, fuck me please
when you want me to beg
when I'm down on my knees
you get all that you want
I wonder if you know
just how fucked I feel
when you come, when you go

like a used rag you toss aside
after screwing with your car
at least you love your car
we don't get that far

daddy why
was it something I said
daddy why
was it something I did
my whole life is a lie
I just want to be a kid
I just want to die
but you keep me alive
oh daddy why



(the full version of daddyy)


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