RANTS IN MY PANTS
...WHEN I GOTTA GO, I JUST GOTTA GO...
...no one knows what it's like...
!! PARANOIA WARNING !!
...the following rant is may test paranoid levels... read at your own risk...
THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
(yes, I will actually get to my complaint in a single post... amazing, isn't it?)
I understand that I am dead and nobody told me... I had to hear about it in a rumour from a third (or fourth or fifth) party... apparently there have been public posts about my death and still, I was not informed until today... I think this is unfair... if I died, I believe I should have been told... as a courtesy, at least... I mean, I'd like to have been the first to know, but I'd accept just being told before it became public knowledge...
(excuse me whilest I take a ten minute break for laughter ;)
ok, so... what's going on?... and who wants to know?...
you have free will, you know?...
yes, I shall mock the ignorance and paranoia that continues to appear to be posting negative misrepresentations of and about me in public forums as long as it continues... and call me weird (since I am LAM ;) but I think that posting news of my death and further compounding it with more negativity is rather rude, even for sad pathetic paranoid control freaks who just don't know how to stop a game they are bound to lose because their fears and need to try to control and continue are their downfall...
just my opinion ;)
and now, for anyone who might be susceptible to the manipulations of anyone who knows how to and seem to continue to try to manipulate others for whatever reasons, please pay close attention to the signature that has, in various forms, been attached to many of my emails and public posts...
(starting to look slightly like the signature yet? ;)
and there are lots more paths to explore, some of which are listed in my signature file that is included in mail and posts about once a month... and there are mailing lists I manage and a group project website I update about once a month and almost every email gets responded to eventually...
Hmmmmmmmm...
and if you think this is about you, then you're paranoid and it probably is LOL... oh just learn to giggle and get over it...
especially in my silent times, your feedback means a lot to me...
RANTS IN MY PANTS
...WHEN I GOTTA GO, I JUST GOTTA GO...
...no one knows what it's like...
!! PARANOIA WARNING !!
...the following rant is may test paranoid levels... read at your own risk...
Hello...
I would like to complain... but first I need to know a few things... yes, I want control, can't you tell?... is this the right web page to lodge an official protest upon?... where is the directory?... is there a map?... where does my complaint go?... and who am I complaining to?... I mean, what are the rules?... what?... no rules?... impossible, there must be rules... how can I be in control if I don't know the rules?...
I've written to several mailings lists and even run a few dozen or so and have all these web pages and still some people don't seem to pay any attention... or maybe they're paying too much attention... but that's a whole other kind of mass hysteria that starts as a kind of mass paranoia that usually starts with one manipulative paranoid proficient with PR and propaganda techniques... it happened in Germany some time ago as you may recall, but that too is yet another mass hysteria only loosely related to my complaint and it is time for me to get to my complaint...
oh, you're still here?... excuse me, I got a life, what's you're excuse?... besides, I forgot I had a complaint... I'd much rather have fun, which is why I left all this nonsense behind a few months ago... life has been so much less ridiculous without the web-paranoia aimed at me... yet it still seems to follow me around... and I suppose I'll be blamed for starting it by mentioning it here, as usual LOL... anyway, the compaint portion of this letter is over...
and now, the mocking portion continues... I think LAM... hey, it's my rant and there are disclaimers and warnings all through this section of the web pages so back off or back out if you don't like it...
and so this letter is full of inside jokes resurrected by the news I received recently that I am dead and blaming others for my death (amazing, huh?)... I hope you enjoy the laughter as I sure am... perhaps the complaint should be directed to the censorship committee? ROFL...
I mean, ok - a serious question... why does anybody still take anything coming from "certain individuals" seriously? (remember?)... seriously (for a moment, for anyone with genuine smiles and hugs who is really concerned), please consider the source when you hear a rumour or get any information...
after all, some sources are so unreliable that anything from them is not worth reading, no less taking seriously...
you may have noticed it... reading it might help... it (the signature that has been at the bottom of many of my letters and posts) refers to how to find out about what is going on in my life, ya know?...
besides, if I was dead, I couldn't very well update the pages, now could I? (ah, but then, maybe I found a way... don't you just love a mystery?... Robert Klein's oooo-eeee-aaahhh sounds from old sci-fi films come back to play behind my laughter... who's still with me?)...
maybe it would help if I explained, one more time for anybody who hasn't gotten it yet, just what some of my web pages are about... step by step instructions and a map might be available someday for those who really need or want it... I don't have time for individual correspondence like I used to, so I post words on the web for anyone who cares and wants to know... for now, see, there's My Home Page which is The Front Door to my home on the web and can be found at this address (wait, the redundancy has just begun): http://members.wbs.net/homepages/a/n/o/anonanonanon.html and there it sorta begins... if you're looking for information about me, that's a fine place to start... however if you want more details about my offline life, you can find that on My "Keep In Touch" Pages at this second, different address:
http://members.wbs.net/homepages/a/n/o/anonanon.html where you'll find the path to various letters journal-type writings and maybe eventually some forms and charts and graphs about real life, whatever that is, offline... I update about weekly, while I'm alive, that is, in case you wondered...
I also check and respond to my ICQ (2119422) regularly so messages can be left there... as I see it, there's plenty of regularly updated information about me available to anyone who cares and my friends, that's the best I can do these days... I again thank my friends who keep in touch with me by reading me on the web... and thanks to all friends who read me anywhere, cuz your patience and understanding let me know you do care about me... and that helps me a lot more than I can tell you in the brief time I have to share online... if it's not enough, ask for more... you may not get it, but you definitely won't if you don't ask...
and now, by popular request, since some people still think I am dead, there is even new announcement mailing lists you can join to receive letters like this one and maybe some webpages before they're put up on the web and who knows what else... find it here, dang it! LOL and you'll have no excuse not to know about me ever again... of course knowing won't necessarily mean you'll stop wondering about me LAM ;)
so anyway (more redundancy for those who find it amusing), like the header for these Letters To Friends pages says, sometimes the best I can do to keep in touch is write to everyone at once... those who care will read, those who don't care will not... I think that's fair... so until I find time for more correspondence in this life, I hope you find reading me on the web interesting, if not amusing enough to come back again... and I hope you find and create more smiles than frowns in your reading and in your life :)
and still, I find my friends being asked about rumours passing around the web-worlds where I am known... I suppose I should be flattered by the supposed importance I'm given... still, it's very puzzling how (or why) such rumours might start since, as I've been told, I'm so pushy about my webpages LOL... one of those things that make you go
ya know?...
[ giggles ]
I think it was Mark Twain who said that famous line about "reports of my death are premature"... well... ditto ;)
honest love, ric (leave a message on ICQ - at 2119422)
MARCH 99 SIGFILE: to friends and anyone who cares to know more... due to a busy life, I'm primarily keeping in touch via my personal web pages so my individual responses are inconsistent and ultra-brief if they happen at all... please check the webpages (they are updated about weekly) and read nothing negative into the passing time :)
* * * * pages last added to on March 21, 1999 * * * *
My Home Page (The Front Door)
http://home.att.net/~anonanonanon.html
My "Keep In Touch" Pages (real life, whatever that is)
http://home.att.net/~candor/kit/kit.html
A Brief Introduction to Anonanonanon (Me)
http://www.hotstart.com/wp/hotstartanon.shtml
The Written Gardens (where the rhymes and letters grow)
http://home.att.net/~candor/gardensmain.html
Mailing List Info (for kids, teens, everybody who enjoys email)
http://home.att.net/~candor/mlinfo.html
Another Support for Loneliness (The ASL Website)
http://homepages.go.com/~aslhome
...a friend is a stranger willing to meet you halfway,
or even come all the way over when necessary...
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