LAYLA'S WORLD
BEING IRRELEVANT BITS AND RELEVANT PIECES OF LETTERS FROM LAYLA,
WHO DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU THINK UNLESS YOU'RE REAL AND COOOL
for the next confrontation cuz he gets off on putting me down so I'm hesitating switching through the stations with the headphones on I won't make a sound maybe he'll forget I'm in here maybe I'll forget he's out there maybe he won't come inside me tonight maybe he won't hit me maybe I'll just die of fear daddy why when will you let me go daddy why when I'm eighteen, I know I'll be out of here you won't find me all I want right now is to live till then this is how I pee in a bottle so I don't have to open the door cuz he's out there waiting to take some more he calls it his throttle says he likes to ram it down I'm supposed to swallow and not make a sound daddy why can't you find someone else daddy why someone more like yourself I don't want to be scarred for all time already so much I live in fear of your touch when you want me to scream fuck me harder, fuck me please when you want me to beg when I'm down on my knees you get all that you want I wonder if you know just how fucked I feel when you come, when you go like a used rag you toss aside after screwing with your car at least you love your car we don't get that far daddy why was it something I said daddy why was it something I did my whole life is a lie I just want to be a kid I just want to die but you keep me alive oh daddy why daddy why he's out there waiting for the next invitation he slightest sound gives him a reason to come in here yelling to blame me for doing what he's gonna do but it isn't true maybe he'll forget I'm in here maybe I'll forget he's out there maybe he won't come inside me tonight maybe he won't hit me maybe I'll just die of fear daddy why when will you let me go daddy why when I'm eighteen, I know I'll be out of here you won't find me all I want right now is to live till then this is how daddyy it's our little secret you say don't ask you why so when I write your name I spell it like this so everyone will know daddyy has a secret why doesn't it show daddyy has a secret daddy won't let me go I just want to be invisible I live inside my head it's the only place that is mine the only place I'm not dead I write my secret diaries they're hidden under my bed maybe someday somebody will read them if the pages don't get too red if someone puts them on the web daddy why don't you stop when I'm bleeding daddy why it's your child that you're seeding isn't anyone reading doesn't anyone care is anybody there does anybody hear do you care? daddyy why don't they care daddyy why are you here doesn't anybody see the fear in my eyes daddyy why does this world allow you to do what you do to me daddyy why oh daddy why daddyy why Daddyy Why Layla ©2000 Candor Communications BACK 
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