THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
(I HOPE...)

without honest love
life means nothing to me
without honest love
there is just apathy
lost in emptiness
trapped in misery
without honest love
there's just agony


I made her my whole life
  gave her everything...

then she went away
she kept everything that mattered to me
now I have no life

  I want a life...

  I want a wife...

  I want a life...



some nights the world seems to come to an end
loneliness feels like it's my only friend
like an ocean of emotion
ever rising over me
like a tide of all the love denied
ebbing inside of me

some nights this life seems to hurt so much
emptiness wants and never gets enough
like dry heaving, nothing's leaving
but it's trying to get out
no words can explain the depth of the pain
what madness is all about


all I ever wanted was to love someone
and be loved by someone
unconditionally

but everyone I've ever met has put conditions on love
and limits on sharing
is not love to me


all I've ever wanted was to trust someone
and be trusted by someone
unconditionally

that's completely openly and honestly
totally
free


I don't have to be jaded
just because I have scars
I don't have to feel guilty
just because others are
I don't have to give up
just because others do
I am still innocent
are you?

when was the last time your heart was true?


some nights the pain seems to beg for death
as sleep doesn't come naturally
and my mind starts spinning around
like a hurricane
like a tornado tearing through me
driving me insane
all that's left is pain

some nights I just seem to want so much
and no one is here to share or touch
and nobody seems to care about me
I'm drowning in blues
did you ever feel this lonely?
what did you do?
what do you do?

  when was the last time...


all I ever wanted was to love someone
and be loved by someone
unconditionally

but everyone I've ever met has put conditions on love
and limits on sharing
is not love to me


all I've ever wanted was to trust someone
and be trusted by someone
unconditionally

that's completely openly and honestly
totally
free


I don't have to be jaded
just because I have scars
I don't have to feel guilty
just because others are
I don't have to give up
just because others do
I am still innocent
are you?

when was the last time your heart was true?


this song could go on forever
just like this night
it doesn't get any brighter
in the day light
until somebody comes along
to share love as I want to love
you'll find me here singing this song
when I should be sleeping
and dreaming of
love


honest love
come carry me out of the blue
honest love
it is all I want to do
complete and open and total and free
love made and shared unconditionally
life without it is endless misery
another day to drag myself through
another night to be blue


without honest love
life means nothing to me
without honest love
there is just apathy
lost in emptiness
trapped in misery
without honest love
there's just agony
just hunger without end
just longing for a friend
just smiles that pretend
just aimlessness to tend
  without honest love...
  without honest love...


...


honest love
come carry me out of the blue
honest love
it is all I want to do
honest love
  what is going on in you?...

when was the last time... your heart was true?



Without Honest Love

Ric Candor    ©1998