THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...)


I check my mail every five minutes
hoping for something more
to fill a moment of my empty life

I look around at pages
imagining they're friends
hoping the truth does not find me
for it cuts like a knife

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed

I check my mail every five minutes
trying to wait that long
sometimes I can, sometimes I'm not that strong

I look around at email
imagining they're friends
hoping the truth does not find me
for the truth is I'm wrong

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed


I join email groups
I join mailing lists
I'm still just a fool who's never been kissed

I join communities
and newsgroups too
I'm getting so much mail I just don't know what else to do


I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed

I sign up for personals
and watch the scroll of chat
I still feel like a loser wondering where I'm at

I put up my profile
I give it my all
and I wait
and I wait
and still nobody calls

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed


when Yahoo didn't save me
I gave Excite a try
then WBS and Talk City, MSN said don't even apply
(someone end the silence even if it is a lie)

I put up my own website
poured all I had into it
but the world just passes me by like no one really gives a shit
(nothing is sadder that a counter that doesn't count)

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed

I sit here day and night
typing words and pressing send
this is where I'll live my life
and where my life shall surely end

I can't begin to tell you
anything worthwhile I've said
I'm the punch line to the joke
what's black and white but not read

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed

I'd like to LOL it off
and most of the time I do
but sometimes I can't stop the nightmare
that it's all coming true

I've given everything I have
how much more are the dues
when will somebody find me
and make me part of their news

and that's the dream that keeps me going
that's the fool I am to choose
to sit here every night like this
adding to these online blues


I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
can you die when you're already dead

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
someone change the channel in my head

there's nothing on of interest
nothing in all I have said

I am so... ... ... .... alone
so...... lonely
I can't keep my soul fed



Online Blues


Ric Candor    ©2000

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