THE EARLY DAYS

Potty training Brigid was my number one priority. She picked it up for good soon after her third birthday in April 1990. We might have started earlier but adjusting to the twins made us put it off time and again or start it and then slack off training.

Organization and the satisfaction of reaching interim attainable goals were the most important qualities I brought with me from my job as a production editor for a middle-sized science and technical publisher, Marcel Dekker, Inc. When I was the full-time breadwinner I used to come home frequently and find breakfast dishes in the sink. I swore I would not let this happen to me. I did the dishes and turned on a few minutes of Regis Philbin as a reward/break from the early morning activity, or had some tea and a snack. The work makes you hungry. You do have to watch lunch at 11:00 though--it could lead to four meals a day.

Among the best memories I have of those early days is lying down, my legs hanging over the side of the bed, and holding Matt, then Tom, with my arms stretched up as high as possible. I would fly one, then the other, and if Brigid would catch us, I would do her too. I think I can still do the boys but our Brigid is too big.

To ease the separation anxiety of Brigid and of Margie, in July 1990 my wife started taking Brigid to go to work with her twice a week to go to the onsite preschool at her job. This gave me a break from the three and Brigid a break from her new siblings. Brigid had a difficult adjustment when we brought the boys home. She was only two years old and we had tried to prepare her for the big day, but we began way too soon. Instead  of telling her the week or month before we brought the boys home,  we told her five months early. We now think this added to her anxiety. This time in preschool away from her new brothers worked out great. She was in a room with children of people who worked there and with children who had cerebral palsy. We were disgusted with the people who thought that the staff's kids should be segregated. Her best pal became a little girl named Makia, a little girl in a wheelchair. This place  gave you perspective.

I enjoyed being outdoors with the kids, after my years of office work. The boys would sleep in the stroller as Brigid and I would go the park every day it didn't rain. She has always been a chatterbox and a lot of fun to be with. Strangers would always ask about the twins and often ignore Brigid.  I could feel her annoyance at being ignored. It is impossible to this day to convince her that she too was once the center of all this tremendous attention. I let Brigid be a lot more adventurous in the playground than Margie did. Height and strength advantages allowed me to hold her as she went down the fire pole next to the slide. Marge would be amazed on the weekend when she would see Brigid at the top of the biggest slide.
 

FIRSTS

I doubt if any mom ever felt reluctant to tell her husband about  baby's first steps. I would often wonder if I should tell Marge about any firsts for fear that she would feel badly about missing  a big event, but eventually I stopped thinking about it. She accepted it as part of not being able to "have it all," that unrealistic expectation that women get when they see Murphy Brown  preparing to take her baby to Paris with her on a news assignment. We have noticed the celebrity mothers of twins, such as Cybill Shepherd and Meredith Baxter who make it look easy. Margie says, "They have a hundred nannies." So Marge missed some first steps, but this time around I got to see them. I also saw first time up on the couch. I will never forget saying, "How did you get up there?" the first couple of times as they gave the,"Who me?" look.

OTHER PARENTS, OTHER KIDS: PLAYGROUND AND PLAYGROUPS

I used to always wonder how Brigid was when  she played with other kids. She was in  a play group and I would hear about it but only see it once. This is one part of your child's development that is critical--the ability to function normally with others and to handle the earliest inherently unfair and difficult situations. Brigid was and is tall for her age, so it would be easy for her, if we had raised her to, to take advantage of her size.  She never has, although she is a tigress if anyone tries to push the boys around.  Being a part of this interaction with  other parents and childen on a regular basis was the most interesting and rewarding time for me. It was all new.

If you are motivated enough to pick up and read material on parenting, you probably don't need to read this part. I want to tell the new parents how the rules of conduct in the playground and the mediation of disputes mirror our own society's rules of law and enforcement. The uninitiated won't believe how lazy some mothers can be when their kid is hitting your kid, not taking turns on the tire swing, or using filthy language. In my playground, the concerned parents mostly overlook the first or second transgression. After that, it's pretty clear that you have a mother that doesn't care even after you try to discuss it. The only solution comes right out of Elizabethan England--banishment. If you don't care enough to discipline your child, go find another playground. It works. I'm afraid I didn't take this job to save the world and I feel sad thinking about your antisocial kid. My kids come first and if your values on childrearing and civility come close to mine, let's be friends. If not, see you later, until we have   to deal with your kid's disruptive influence in ten years in school.

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