LETTERS TO FRIENDS
...sometimes the best I can do to keep in touch is write to everyone at once...
if I never sent this, ooops... I just found it in my drafts folder... I've been online only a few minutes each week the past few weeks... should be asleep now but trying to catch up a bit on mail... thanks for understanding... even when I'm not online I'm sending positive energy and honest love to you... I've been bumped around a bit lately and haven't been online much - and a crash took most of the mail from the LL email group (too much moving around is not good for an old laptop)... I am borrowing a friend's phone line to say hello (mine is in transit again, as am I)... I'm healthy, I think... there's my good news... that's it for now (got piles of bad news, but I don't have much else to say (though I find rambles on my webpages continue in spite of everything)... I don't write to the email groups basically because I don't want to worry anyone (I'm hopeful I'll have better news soon, but for now I'm sleeping on couches (homeless again cuz I trusted yet another person too much) and amazed at the wonder of it all... it's not getting to me though... just look at what popped out from the childinside to me and every childinside everywhere tonight: and all so afraid to let each other know plans have been made that sweep us away and leave us behind and childinside knows it's all in the mind and the dawn breaks (or does it creak) and the earth quakes (or does it speak) and the light shines (or does it glow) and the childinside wants to know why am I waking up alone... where did everyone go? everyone is hiding out on the inside busy with the dollar signs and daily grinds wondering if the childinside of you died close the blinds so you don't see the signs how would you know if you lose your minds childinside doesn't want to be alone childinside is always alone childinside keeps company inside but childinside does not want to hide come and play with childinside won't you play with childinside wanna play with childinside aren't we all?... so whatcha doing? :) Hi (wow, fancy rhyming lyrical song kind of opening, huh?... it's like child has a show on TV or something... probably something... yes, it's beamed out on starlight every night... the childinside show)... that's me :) and I hope you are smiling and feeling the wonderful wonder filled wonders that wander all around you and inside of you... you are one, ya know?... well, ya oughta know now... you just gotta let it show :) it doesn't matter where you are it doesn't matter what you're doing it doesn't matter if you're rich or poor unknown or a star you can go as far as you dare to take your dreams the world is your playground and life is as simple as it seems it doesn't matter what they do it doesn't matter what they think it doesn't matter if you're black and blue red, yellow or pink you are still a drink of the sunshine, arise and shine you are alive if you hear this and that's the bottom line if you're having trouble finding a smile you can have mine if you're lost or confused sometimes we're all in that line and don't be afraid to step out of it take a walk and find yourself you know I never doubted you a bit you're a favorite book on my shelf it doesn't matter if your struggle or if you slide through life with ease and even if somebody betrays you kicks you when you're on your knees steps on your when you say please love me, don't hurt me, be true to your heart and soul cuz your ideals will always save you if you decide what they are and make them what you do if you're having trouble finding some hope you can have mine if you're feeling past the end of your rope we're all on that line and don't be afraid to step off it take a walk and find your way you know I never doubted you a bit you're a favorite moment of my day and you think I don't even know you well I love you all the same cuz that's the best feeling I know wanna play a game? well, you are in childinside's world, whatcha expect? :) and as the sun slowly seeps through the rainy dawn, childinside wanders out into the wilderness wondering what new adventure awaits... but first, it's time to stop a moment and enjoy the excitement :) honest love, child (someday child's home on the web will be built :) so, not to worry, but to please understand my absence... I'm scrapping bottom again, but this time I intend to be bouncing out of it sooner than last time... resiliency, that's what I'm developing :} I hope you are feeling at least ok, wishing you were feeling wonderful all the time... and hope all is well for you and Bri... don't tell the LL or others any bad news, I'll survive the challenges and bop back eventually... I just want you to know I care... you can tell them I care :) if you don't hear from me again for a while, no worries... I'm just doing what I must do to survive... I'll have my own phone access again... until then, my phone is switched to voice mail and I'll borrow other phone lines as I can... stay beautiful and true and you :) honest love, ric LETTERS TO FRIENDS can be inspired by anyone asking me questions or by my desire to keep in touch with friends and people becoming friends or sometimes, just a fantasy of someone I wish was a friend whether you live in Orlando or far away, these are web ways to stay in touch with me (or give me a little attention and feedback) . o O ( J I love attention and feedback... doesn't everybody? J ) O o . Reading on the Web kinda monthly updates: http://home.att.net/~candor/kit weekly summaries: http://home.att.net/~candor/kit/lifetimes daily-ish journals (work): http://home.att.net/~candor/kit/worklife daily-ish journals (life): http://home.att.net/~candor/kit/journals (other deeper journalish writings can be found if you have time to explore) (Heads Up... though these are letters to real people and the journals are based in real offline life, here as much as anywhere in the written gardens on the web there is creative play, literary fantasy, and just stuff a writer with too much time at times might do... differentiating between what is really happening in life offline and what is pure imagination {and how much of each is on each page} is for you to figure out... or specifically ask about) J J More Ways to Keep In Touch via Email (and let me know you care) J semi-infrequent updates by email: ricc-subscribe@egroups.com make sure you're in my addy book: riccc-subscribe@egroups.com various online groups to explore: http://home.att.net/~candor/eg wait for me to respond to mail (could be a while): candor@writeme.com Via Phone, Fax, or Snail Mail LETTER INDEX GO BACK GO ON RUN AWAY! 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