THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... I HOPE...
HOME, HOME ON THE WEB
hi and welcome J... you have found the web homes of Anonanonanon, childinside, sysquash, newsbee, and other literary personae used by the author (me) to interact with creative muses and share in words... nobody's home at the moment, but feel free to wander around and leave a message at the click of this link...
(to be continued
. . . )
DEAR EVERYONE... I found a place for at least a few months, more later J
...MAY ALL YOUR HOLIDAYS BE BRIGHTENED BY WARM LOVING SMILES...
AND
PLEASE DON'T BE LONELY ON CHRISTMAS
ok, I found a place in Orlando (still borrowing a phone to update)... if you live around here and would like a new friend, say hi (hope you do J)... I still may need a new apartment or roommate in a few months, so any info you send me will be much appreciated)...I'm ready to relax and have fun, how about you? J
... still more new pages added March 24, 2000 ...
...been here, done this?... just wanna know what's new?...
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SPECIAL REPORT FROM THE FRONT LINES
in case you notice some broken links or missing pages along your way through this madhouse, please let me know... see, the server did some crashing and lost some of the pages... I've done my best to rebuild the site and I think I've got it back together, but nobody's perfect (so I'm told) so I'd appreciate any missing-page reports you send in...
NEW... there are now three new portals to this web world and you can find them by checking the what's new? page (or you could just read on and see what's new in this babble-way)... the focus is still words, not graphics, but each has a slightly different way of greeting you and introducing you to what I'm doing on the web... whatcha think?...
~ ~ ~ and now back to the homepage already in progress ~ ~ ~
if you like rhymes, poems, and creative writing ... take a walk along the paths in
The Written Gardens
(Main Entrance)
there you'll find some of the stuff that keeps me awake at nights and what I do with the time most people use for sleeping... words and music, for starters... of course you don't have to take that new path... you could take this new path, even though it's not the newest new path (it was once though), and see where it leads... I mean, I'm just trying to say hello and there's no telling what I'll start rambling about once I do (say hello, that is)...
you could check out (and bookmark, s'il vous plais) the newest entrances (and of course new paths and webspaces to be created) leading into this home on the web... one shall be a WEB MAINGATE eventually to have links everything I do on the web (with brief explanations of what's to be found in each area)... kinda like a matrix... if you want to know something about me, try THE BACK DOOR explore more biographically oriented babble... or maybe you'd like to climb in through WINDOW for a more current-life oriented (or maybe you'd like to take a peek at what's behind the curtain for a moment of reflection)... and if you really care and want to share you could simply make contact and see what we can make of it all...
~ ~ COMING ~ ~ SOON ~ ~ COMING ~ ~ SOON ~ ~
(MAYBE IF I PUT IT HERE I'LL ACTUALLY REMEMBER TO DO IT?)
the new great old friend search... or the new old great friend search... well, it's gonna happen, trust me... I'm gonna be scouring databases and paying off IRS agents and infiltrating the CIA, but I'm gonna find ya... so if you ever knew me you might as well just give yourself up now and save the government a lot of money... or... we could just enjoy the anticipation... so what else is coming?...
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I'll think of something... actually, there are lots of ideas on the blackboard of my mind... a major revision to this page might be in order... I suppose I should save past versions for posterity or something, huh?... you know how old posterity likes archives... and there's gonna be a more frequently updated links section... maybe something like the weeks best links... though best might not be the best adjective for what I might choose... and there's gonna be a whole slew of mailing lists and newsgroups and public writings added in the near future... yes, the new millenium is gonna see major expansion here... like Disneyworld, always building something new... or re-building something old... and the friends section... yeah, it's about time, huh?... and what else?... the long awaited guest book?... message board?... chat room?... anyway, more to come, and more announcements about it too...
WE INTERRUPT THIS HOMEPAGE FOR ANOTHER IMPORTANT MESSAGE
if all you had to do to feed a hungry child was click on a link, would you?
...we now return you to your journey still in progress...
I know when a child is hurting
that the silence can be wrong
I know when old folks are helpless
I can't just pass along
and I know when someone's hungry
I can't just sing this song
and when I hear somebody crying
I can't just wonder who that it could be
well, I hear somebody crying now..."
~ Harry Chapin ~
thank you Harry... well, sorta (returning to the journey in progress, that is)... sometimes it isn't easy to stay positive, no less happy and cheerful in this world... humans do some pretty stupid and harmful things... it's very depressing when I take a serious look at this world... it makes the child inside of me cry... and it makes me wish I had the power to change things... maybe you have extra money or some way to help someone who needs help... if you do, please let me know because I personally know families and children in crisis who could really use your help... I don't want to ignore the serious messes in this world, but... here in this home on the web I am trying to create a positive experience for myself and for you... I'd like to inspire your smile... so, before Sysquash growls too much... Anonanonanon to the rescue...
ummmm...
ok, so like now I'm suppose to just simply return casually to carefree happy silly (my own brand of silly, of course... there's some seriousness tossed in {often in diguise} for extra flavour) mind-tickling babbling without missing a beat and I guess I'm just crazy (or is that creative?... sit down ego, the applause you hear is all in your mind) enough to do it...
well, as I was saying, this is my message in a bottle, my hello to the universe... recently I attempted to say hello again to friends, old and new... you might want to start your journey there cuz it's kinda close to the present.. or at least it was the present once... and it's closer to the present than the past stuff is... or was... except of course for this new path, which was new once and specifically for people who are interested in meeting offline... but it's not the present now... the present now is whenever you are reading this... in fact, that was actually weeks and months ago, respectively... I'm still hearing whipporwills, though...
sigh...
(line skipped for dramatic effect)
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ok... so anyway, to stay up to date (with me, if you want to) you could tell me you want to be added to my email address book by subscribing to my newest address book list and you will eventually get periodic mail from me in the actual present for a moment at that moment... time's a weird trip to understand sometimes, ya know?...
yes, I'm still looking for friends offline, in case you're in the area...
or anywhere...
Orlando, Florida would be seriously coool (hey, it is J)
of course I'm not referring to the temperature...
eventually, I think this page will have many different paths you can choose from (like a house with many doors... hey, it's happening, it's happening... LAM) that each lead through the gardens differently, but it's still and probably always will be kind of a wilderness so you'll just have to wander through as best you can... until I hire a guide (really?) or mapmaker (you'll find me on Wolf Trail... I used to be here... offline I mean... if you go there {to the link online, I mean} click your back button to return here - online... unfortunately, this webworld is not equipt with clickable offline transportation just yet, but we're working on it)...
and yes, actually, there are many paths now... and there's even the new what's new page as you may have noticed... but still that main entrance index-type thing is as close to organized as I've gotten so far... Wacko keeps coming by to draw some lines and play with mud and Pinky brought some more lint and fluffy things and we call it a map... but it still looks more like a list of words... maybe we should consider calling it a table of contents until a real JAVA the hut PERL of a graphics oriented web page genius mapmaker finally arrives...
maybe you're interested who I am... who am I?... well, the mystery (mystory?) has been unravelling for a long time... you can visit A Brief Introduction to Anonanonanon where you can read a basic bio about me, written from Anon's perspective... Anon is a very real imaginary part of me that kinda represents the free association babbling and believes firmly that anything can happen (and does if we want it to) and all things can be positive so don't worry, be happy, and enjoy the show... Anon, short for Anonanonanon, is childinside's best friend and was so named due to a tendency to babble on and on and on and on and... so, well, you might want to visit the potty, get a tall drink, and pull up a comfy chair :)
or if you have less time, you can read my latest letter to a new friend that attempts to share the stuff that makes me who I am in, well, a letter to a new friend :)
or if you have time and want to know me more personally, you could ask and I'll most likely send my latest sigfile which tries to say I would love to share more (and intend to) but have little time these days so please visit my "Keep In Touch" pages for a more event-oriented view of the story of a life as I'm experiencing it (recent events only so far)... umm, warning?: Anon's influences can definitely be seen here too, so expect some tangential delays as you read through these pages as they've grown a bit... mastering the art of understatement as usual, actually they've kinda exploded exponentially over time...
they (the KIT pages) started as kinda a monthly series of open letters to friends to keep in touch, but now include all sorts of babbling about offline stuff like work (which turned into a weekly update that actually does relate to worklife... sometimes... but now that I'm not working there's life that has to be mostly babble cuz there's virtually no life to write about at the moment cuz I spent so much time working this year, but that's changing) and even another attempt at some sort of journal of sorts (which is updated even more often these days) and still deeper puddle-jumping (somewhere in this maze, of you want more babble with actual details of my actual personal life experiences thrown in {haphazardly, of course} amidst random ponderings) just starting to emerge even as I write this... in fact you've come this far so your reward is the latest newest path that takes you right into the midst of the journal as I ponder sharing more right at home (or rather, a new home I shall be relocating to soon... just as soon as I locate it)... or if you truly believe you are free and open and secure enough to seriously share everything, you could just call (the pager number is currently not in service, I'll post a new one when I get a new one... so write) J
and quite suddenly here is...
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ A BRIEF MESSAGE TO A STRANGER ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Dear Stranger... you sent me an email and when I responded, the address was returned undeliverable... if you want to communicate, send a valid email address, k?... till tomorrow... honest love, ric
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ AND NOW... BACK TO THE HOMEPAGE STILL IN PROGRESS ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
as a babbler, I love web chats and have tried many sites and most communication programs (childinside loves ICQ (2119422) but there's not been much time for it)... eventually there will be a section here sharing info about the various places I might be found chatting (used to have a lot more time) and maybe something about some of the people (and things) I find there... until then, I moved the links for chats and connecting and stuff onto the communications links page... you'll find a link to the links page later if you continue reading...
speaking of ICQ, it is one of the best ways to communicate I've found... for many, it's a communication program... for some, it's a way of life (I've been there)... for me, today, it's a cyber answering machine... so leave me a message? (and leave a return address - email, snail mail, ICQ number, phone number, something - if you want a response :)
PSSSST... HEY YOU... YEAH, YOU... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE... YOU SENT ME THAT "HI" MESSAGE ON THIS THING... THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN SAY HI BACK CUZ YOU DIDN'T LEAVE ANY NAME OR NUMBER OR ADDRESS OR ANYTHING... SO . . . HI . . . J
PSSST... HOPE YOU SAY HI AGAIN :)
here's the latest newest contact page where you can email me right from the web... you'll just have to try it to be able to read the thank you pages (terribly subtle, aren't I?)...
so... ever forget an important date? (oh, I don't forget... I choose to be late so I can encourage the celebration to continue all year LAM ;) ... would you like an email sent to you a week or two before to remind you?... well, the same good people at Candor Webtech (cool name, huh?) who provided some of the graphics on this site (thank you) also have great memories (I think they employ elephants... they're from Africa, after all) and will send you an email reminder if you tell them when and why (you actually write the email to yourself)... and best of all, it's free and you can do it right here... (I still don't remember stuff cuz I'm too busy to remind myself with this thing, alas... but it's still here :)
speaking of time... ever wish you could just click a button and find out exactly how many days (or hours, minutes, and seconds even) there are until some moment in the future?.... well, now you can J
what happened to the search engines?...
and now... for no apparent reason... here's yet another new path proving that even I sometimes have nothing better to do than say very little about... the weather...
hey look - more new mailing lists
like writing and sending and getting email?... then a mailing list is a ideal way to meet others... for kids... for teens... for big people too... more info will follow as each mailing list develops a personality of it's own as people join... have a good idea or reason for a new mailing lists?... let me know and I'll help you start your own...
and there's still (wake it up, send an email to this address)...
ever feel lonely?... don't know what to do?
maybe someone else is feeling just like you
a message in a bottle may be trying to get through
an email list for the lonely... coming out of the blue...
question about The Lonely List?... send an EMAIL to the list manager...
eventually I'll actually create this links to friends pages in the friends section... until I do, there are the mailing lists where some of my friends hang out (or nap ;)
a touch of Pooh Wisdom for forever friends :)
I'd like to thank the good folk at Candor Webtech and various others I borrowed from for providing some of the graphics for this site... most stuff I've pulled from the web has no direct link to an author or creator... I wish to give credit to any creator of graphics or words that I include here, so if you see something of yours here please let me know...
speaking of rights... you wanna keep yours?... let's see... you write or draw something, copyright it, and it's yours, right?... maybe... think again...
there's no guestbook yet... so
EMAIL ME =) NO, ME =) ME FIRST =)
I mean, if you were gonna sign the guestbook... and if you weren't well, then disregard this paragraph... unless you want to email me, or one of me, anyway...
onward... or is that onword?... well, continuing right along... until I organize my thousands of links for web pages, I suppose this is the start of a "links" section...
hey... where'd they go?...
oh yeah, the page grew too big and had to be split up again... so if you've already had your fill of my written gardens and letters to friends and to strangers and personal ramblings like worklife and lifetimes and journal and heartbeats (hmmmm, would this be the ingredients for that map I was looking for?) and you've already written and you don't want to call me and you're looking for the links (the section is growing, send more) and all that babble that introduces them, well then wander this way J
well...
that's about it for the first page for now... there'll be a lot more added as time goes by so if you like what you read then stop by again and take another look around... as I said, it's pretty much a wilderness, so you'll just have to wander through and look for stuff you haven't seen before... maybe I'll get one of those 
graphics to stick next to new stuff... ummmm, well, maybe I'll start using them one of these nights... for now, there are few road signs, only paths to explore... hope you enjoy your journey...